So... I am only 2 pounds away from losing 100 pounds. CRAZY! I got on the scale this morning and like a lot of times when I am about to hit a new number, I weigh myself 2,3,4,5 times to just make sure I'm seeing the number correctly. I did that today. I have lost 98 pounds. Even that number is pretty exciting too.
A lot going on, this week....well this week has just been a pretty stress filled one. I've received a lot of bad news from people in my life and it's taking a toll on my for sure. Being supportive, praying, encouraging and just giving a hug..that's how this week has been. The verse that keeps coming to mind is "be still and know..." I've been still a lot this week. This morning we did some moving of desks at work and I am now in a different cube that is really different from the one I had before. It's quiet and I can do some thinking for sure...I think I'll like this for the moment..
Pressing onward and looking up!
Weight loss: -2
Total weight loss: -98 pounds.
Thursday, September 23, 2010
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Labels
So last night I was laying in bed ready to fall asleep and all of a sudden the word labels popped into my head. So for the next 45 minutes I laid in bed and thought about the word labels and what it means. Labels has such a variety of meanings...but at the end it has the same outcome. We have labels on our clothes, food, anything that we purchase has a label. The tax bracket that you fall in, your labeled, what you believe in, where you go to school, work, the circle of friends you hang out with, your relationships, politics, backgrounds, how much you weight, how you look and dress, the state you live in, your business encounters, the list goes on and on....all of us have a label. When you sit and think about it, if every we where to put a sticker on ourselves of all the labels we are....you'd be covered.
The other thought I had was that many times we let labels define us. But what many of us forget is that a label should never define us, we should define it. I watched about 45 minutes of the Biggest Loser last night. My heart broke and I actually had to turn it off. You'd think at this point I'd be encouraged by these people stories, but there was so much emptiness and pain shared last night that I actually found myself wanting to eat a bag of oreo's. I didn't, but it just made me re think where I've been, the hurt I've felt and how I dealt with it. We're a country, a nation of unhappy overweight people...see I just put a label on most Americans. Yikes...see think about today, what do you label in your life? Then decided if the label is defining you or if your defining the label. Food for thought....
Weight loss: -1
Total Weight loss: -96 pounds.
The other thought I had was that many times we let labels define us. But what many of us forget is that a label should never define us, we should define it. I watched about 45 minutes of the Biggest Loser last night. My heart broke and I actually had to turn it off. You'd think at this point I'd be encouraged by these people stories, but there was so much emptiness and pain shared last night that I actually found myself wanting to eat a bag of oreo's. I didn't, but it just made me re think where I've been, the hurt I've felt and how I dealt with it. We're a country, a nation of unhappy overweight people...see I just put a label on most Americans. Yikes...see think about today, what do you label in your life? Then decided if the label is defining you or if your defining the label. Food for thought....
Weight loss: -1
Total Weight loss: -96 pounds.
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Enough bad news...
Lately it seems like every where I turn there is some tragic or heart breaking news. Everything from a couple getting divorced, to someone dealing with cancer, a bizarre accident that took a young life to soon, to someone feeling that they aren't worth it in this life and have no reason to live. Seriously all this news can really make some feel that the weight of the world is heavier now then it's ever been. All these things make me take a step back, take a deep breath and realize that GOD is bigger then all this. His plan is greater then all this. Sometimes it's just harder to see it then normal.
This morning I didn't weigh myself...the first time since I started that I haven't. I don't know why, nor will I make excuses. All the things I've listed above happened to be on my mind this morning. It weighed a lot on my mind, I think I just didn't have it in me to see where I was at this morning. It did throw me off though, I feel like I'm missing something...missing knowing that I'm still on track. BUT not to worry I'll be back on those scales in the morning.
Weight loss: 0
Total Weight loss: -95 pounds.
This morning I didn't weigh myself...the first time since I started that I haven't. I don't know why, nor will I make excuses. All the things I've listed above happened to be on my mind this morning. It weighed a lot on my mind, I think I just didn't have it in me to see where I was at this morning. It did throw me off though, I feel like I'm missing something...missing knowing that I'm still on track. BUT not to worry I'll be back on those scales in the morning.
Weight loss: 0
Total Weight loss: -95 pounds.
Monday, September 20, 2010
a non weight loss moment...
When you say good bye
Before I begin this I want to make it clear that this (what I'm about to write) has nothing to do with 1) my weight loss or 2) anyone in my life right now.
Do you ever find yourself staring at someone and realizing that you have nothing else to say to them. This person could be someone that you've known all your life for just a couple of years. But you get to the point where you have nothing left to say, you have nothing left to give and all you can think about is parting ways with this person. I can count on my hand how many times that's happened in my life. Each of those times where times of self examination and deep down understanding who I really was. I believe that everyone is brought into your life for a reason, a season and a time. No one ever knows how long or short someone will stay. Sometimes those that we wish you would stay longer are just in your life for a moment and others that you thought would only stay for a short time stick around for a lifetime. We don't understand this, nor try to figure it out because in the end either way it leads to heart break. Sometimes the reason someone is in your life is never really understood till their gone. And sometimes you never understand why they where in your life to begin with. But out of the whole experience you find something...you learn something about yourself and either be thankful you where blessed with them in your life or realize that you had some learning to do.
For me, I will continue to embrace the relationships that I've been blessed with and continue to move forward in all I do. The past is in the past for a reason, I'm done looking back...I'm all about looking forward.
Weight loss: -3 pounds
Total Weight loss: -95 pounds.
Before I begin this I want to make it clear that this (what I'm about to write) has nothing to do with 1) my weight loss or 2) anyone in my life right now.
Do you ever find yourself staring at someone and realizing that you have nothing else to say to them. This person could be someone that you've known all your life for just a couple of years. But you get to the point where you have nothing left to say, you have nothing left to give and all you can think about is parting ways with this person. I can count on my hand how many times that's happened in my life. Each of those times where times of self examination and deep down understanding who I really was. I believe that everyone is brought into your life for a reason, a season and a time. No one ever knows how long or short someone will stay. Sometimes those that we wish you would stay longer are just in your life for a moment and others that you thought would only stay for a short time stick around for a lifetime. We don't understand this, nor try to figure it out because in the end either way it leads to heart break. Sometimes the reason someone is in your life is never really understood till their gone. And sometimes you never understand why they where in your life to begin with. But out of the whole experience you find something...you learn something about yourself and either be thankful you where blessed with them in your life or realize that you had some learning to do.
For me, I will continue to embrace the relationships that I've been blessed with and continue to move forward in all I do. The past is in the past for a reason, I'm done looking back...I'm all about looking forward.
Weight loss: -3 pounds
Total Weight loss: -95 pounds.
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