When someone tells you that time doesn't stay still...no joke. I blinked and 7 years has passed my by. In 5 days my little girl will be turning 7...I can't believe it really. I remember thinking that 5 years was a lot, I did a lot of poundering around that time of all that had changed, but 7 years has a different feeling.
I remember all that happened like it was yesterday...I remember what I did the days that followed up to Makayla's arrival. Though I wasn't expecting her till the 24th...she arrived early. I was working for Manpower Inc. at the time and I remember the companies and businesses that I visted. I remember all the ladies that I worked with would say, "oh it's just a matter of time." I did all the laundry so I would just be ready...I made sure that everything was good to go for her arrival.
The night before she was born I remember feeling so tired and how I just needed some rest to get through the rest of the week. Unknown to me that only a few hours from then she would be here in the world. June 10th was the day that my life took a direction that I didn't even think I was ready for.....
As I held her in my arms that morning my heart was filled with such joy, love, peace and excitement...to be a mom, to have this little girl was everything. But in the same moment that I was feeling all this, my marriage was falling apart. I was facing seperation and divorce....How could this moment be happening? This was to be the best moment of my life because I became a mom, but it was also the same time that I was all alone. In the physical sense...I was alone.
What I didn't realize till years later that God had been preparing me for that moment, He was working in my life to make me stronger, to trust Him more, to realize that He was already and always had been in control. It would take me several years to finally look back on that moment and realize the two paths that my life was taking. I was going to be single but I was also going to be a mom....
In a short amount of time after Makayla was born, we moved back home and the life I know soon began to take shape. I watched her room turn from a babies room to now a little girls room....how the years have passed us by. I am forever thankful for how life has turned out....actually it is so much better this way then if things would of stayed the other way. It's hard sometimes to see the bigger picture, but I am thankful that God prepared me for all of this. He continues to move me in His direction and make me realize that I have so much to be thankful for. I am thankful that I know Him, that I have that relationship with Him...we are blessed....our lives are blessed and this year when I celebrate Makayla's 7th birthday I will have continued joy in my heart. I'll hold dear to the moments of holding her when my world was falling apart and having peace. I'll hold tight to knowing that each step of this journey would never be possible with out my faith, my family and prayer. I take mothing and no moments of my life for granted. They are all gifts given to me.
My Dearest Makayla,
Happy 7th Birthday my beautiful daughter. I am so very thankful for you and what a blessing you are in my life. You are a blessing to so many and have touched so many people over the last 7 years, I can never say thank you enough to our heavenly father for allowing you to be my beautiful daughter here on earth. I look forward to watching you grow and knowing that each steo we have together is to be charished. I love you my dear.
XOXOXOX
Mommy
