Well it's surprising to me that it's been almost 4 months since I've taken a moment to write in my blog. But in those four months a lot has happened, new job, new car, good things, bad things and all the in between. It's been a roller coaster ride with friends and it's been a journey with new....my life has pretty much shown me that none of this is in my control. I have no say in what really will happen, I am along for the ride. And what a ride it's been....
I was looking back over some of the blogs that I had posted and boy I miss it. I miss sitting down and putting my thoughts on "paper". Even if no one else reads it, it's good for me to just get my thoughts out and move on. The last four months have been full of new experiences, good and bad. It's been about lessons, good and bad. But most of all it's been about reflection of who I am and what I need to do, good and bad.
I'd like to think that I've made all the right choices, but that isn't the case. Last night I was talking with a friend and we started talking about past relationships and what we learn from them, good and bad. And when the question was possed to me, I blanked out. I couldn't remember, I couldn't focus on what it was I really learned from it. But what I did realize was that I am such a stronger person because of it. I realized that all the trust issues that I have had stem from those relationships and the reason that I hold so many at arms length is because of what happened in those times. But most importantly I realized that I have so much to offer and that it's not just about the outwardness of someone, but it's who they are to the core......that's been the hardest thing to really work through over the last few months. It's good to be back, it's good to re focus and it's good to write it out....have a good night ;)
