Love....hmm

I heard this song a few days ago by JJ Heller...I highly suggest that you Google it or YouTube it...whatever, just listen to this song. All the words ring very true in my life and I have found myself asking the very question Who will love me for me....but at the end of the day I am reminded that Christ will love me for me, no matter what. When the rest of the world has turned their backs on me, when the last guy has hurt me, or when a friend no longer is a friend, when I don't think I am loveable anymore...HE will love me for me. No matter what.

He cries in the corner where nobody sees
He’s the kid with the story no one would believe
He prays every night, “Dear God won’t you please…
Could you send someone here who will love me?”

Who will love me for me
Not for what I have done or what I will become
Who will love me for me
‘Cause nobody has shown me what love

Her office is shrinking a little each day
She’s the woman whose husband has run away
She’ll go to the gym after working today
Maybe if she was thinner then he would’ve stayed

Who’ll love me for me?
Not for what I have done or what I will become
Who will love me for me?
‘Cause nobody has shown me what love
What love really means, what love really means

He’s waiting to die as he sits all alone
He’s a man in a cell who regrets what he’s done
He utters a cry from the depths of his soul
“Oh Lord, forgive me, I want to go home”

Then he heard a voice somewhere deep inside
And it said, “I know you’ve murdered
And I know you’ve lied
And I have watched you suffer all of your life
And now that you’ll listen, I’ll tell you that I…”

I will love you for you
Not for what you have done or what you will become
I will love you for you

Marriage....

Who doesn't love a wedding...who doesn't like to pick out flowers and cake. Who doesn't like picking out rings, the dress, the colors and telling the story of how you met and how he asked you to join him in this life? Who doesn't want to join together with another human and committee their lives together, forever? Personally, I love all that. I love the wedding, I love the planning, and I love the marriage...I've been through it already in life...

All that being side the second time around is totally different then the first. It's taken many years for me to even decide if I'd want to re marry again...that's only something for me to know :) But I will tell you this; if it would ever happen again I wouldn't be getting married because I "needed" a man in my life. BUT it will be because he would see my strengths and my skills and would come alongside me and live our lives together. Besides me, walking together in this life. That's what I'd want and if that's not possible then I'll be just fine in this life.

I know and believe that no matter what happens from here on out I'll be just fine, I will be ok...I never needed a marriage to define who I was, I thought I did a long time ago. But I learned a lot about whom I was and what I wanted in this life, the cool thing is if there is a second time around then it will be with someone who's my best friend and will walk alongside me through the rest of our lives....

It would be a pretty amazing walk to say the least ;)

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