One of those days

Yesterday....was just one of those days. I don't have a lot to say about it other then I am glad that this is a new day with new beginnings and new outlook. Today is a brand new start to anything that we want, what works out for all of us. ~The good thing about yesterday was I had a great work out with my friend Melissa! And my little girl and parents are amazing. I am blessed.

So, enjoy this day. Work hard and laugh deeply!

Weight loss: -2 pounds

Total Weight loss: -110 pounds

Running...

LATE! Never fails when you have the best intentions and think that you'll have enough time to get from point A to point B....something usually throws a wrench in it. That's how this morning feels, and on top of that I am very sore. Even though I wanted to work out yesterday but because of other commitment’s I was unable to, I know my body needed rest.

The next 4 days will be a true test. My next break won't come till Monday. And I'm ok with that. It's my goal, 6 days a week and 1 day for a break. I know that as the summer approaches that won't be possible, but if I at least work at it for a few weeks at this pace then I won't be freaking out when I have to miss more then one day.

I'm ready to get back to it tonight. I'll have my first work out partner, pretty exciting. I know we'll have a good time and maybe a few funny stories.

Weight loss: -1

Total Weight loss: -108 pounds

Day 2 of my burn...I mean work out

Completed day 2 of my new work out "lifestyle". Exciting, oh sure...not as exciting as the first day. But I got through it. It was harder because I started to hear the inner self make excuses...or at least try too.

I jumped right into my work out just like I had done the night before. But this time I found a treadmill in the middle. I thought that this would be ok but I realized that I really am cut out for the front row. I was to distracted being in the second row. I found myself counting minutes. But I got through my 60 minutes of walking on the treadmill, a little jogging but nothing like the night before.

What made this work out different then the first time, I was more aware of who was around me and I started to people watch. We are definitely an interesting group of people. The majority of the people there are working out for a purpose and they have a goal in mind. But there is a handful of people that are there for no reason at all but to walk around and talk to people. They might get onto a machine for a few minutes but they won't last very long. I find this trend interesting. And I also question people’s motives. For me this is more then just showing up. I will produce results, I will see this through. I will make this my lifestyle for good.

Today I am a little sore, but I am good, I feel good. I also notice too that I am not as "weighted" down with my thoughts and life...I feel like when I am working out, I am actually "working" out those thoughts and feelings as well. See this is a win win for me life...so I won't stop, I won't give up and I'll push through. Tonight is a rest night and I'll be back at it tomorrow. Finish well!

Weight loss: 0

Total Weight loss: -107 pounds

Work it out...

So yesterday began a new journey...I had my first work out in a long time. If you'd want to know how long, the last time I set foot in a gym and really worked out was 1997. YES, that long!

I could hardly wait and I'm not really sure why I was so excited to put my body through touchier. I mean, who does that! I do, I do!!! So here's how it went down...The night before I had packed my bag and had all my work out stuff ready to go. Went to work, and as the clock ticked on I was getting more excited to begin my journey with Planet Fitness. If you have one in your town, I highly recommend you check it out. Good base, great machines and a fun environment to work out in. I dressed and headed out after 5...even though it was pouring the rain yesterday, I didn't care, and I just couldn't wait to get started.

Pulled in the parking lot, scored a parking spot in the front row. I hurried up and shut my car off and jumped out like I was a kid headed to a party. Odd for me. I walked in and it took me back for just a moment, I was excited to be here but the self doubt took one last stab at me "can you really do this? I think not." I quickly told the self doubt to check it’s self at the door. I approached the counter, checked in like I had done this a million times before. They welcomed me and gave me a tour, a t-shirt, all the bells and whistles.....and a black card. See this black card is important, it's what you use to check in, to make it legit that you where here to work out.

After the tour I headed straight to the treadmills. I had already decided that I was going to start here. There where three rows of treadmills, all with people focused and working out. I of course decided just like in school that I wanted to be in the back row. I didn't want people to stair at me so the safest way for me to avoid this would be to find a treadmill in the last row. So I looked...full. Ok well the second row wouldn't be that bad, so I'll check there....full. WHAT?!?! Are you kidding me, this 32 year old hasn't worked out since HS and I am about to show the whole world just that! You have to be kidding me. I looked at the front row and low and behold a treadmill open. It was like a neon sign was hanging above it with my name on it saying this is it, get on and hold on. I knew if I didn't take that one I might be waiting awhile. So I walked quickly to it, put my jacket over the side and starred at this machine. Now what!

It was a good thing that the two ladies beside me where well into their work out, running like they had just stole from the Coach store. I felt a tad defeated because there wouldn't be a chance that I could keep up with them. But wait I wasn't there to keep up with anyone, I am here to take care of me. I started to push buttons...9 hole mode or weight loss mode. Well not a fan of golf so I picked the weight loss mode. Then it asked me for me weight. Really! This screen is like a movie screen and you want me to type in my weight...great! I did it quickly and went onto the next question. How long did I want to do this...well I committed to 30 minutes...but let's do 45. Then it said push when ready. Ok...I'll do that. I quickly put on my headphones, turned on my ipod and placed it in the holder. Just as I began to push start the Top Gun Anthem came onto my ipod. This was the song that I would start my work out too...I laughed and pushed the go button...

I was off. Walking at a quick pace. But in the back of my mind a red flag started to wave. "Amanda you knew better!" Everyone knows that you don't just jump on something or start working out with out warming up first. And since it had been over a decade since I had worked out, I really should have listened to this warning. By now I was 10 minutes into this treadmill and it was started to pick up speed. My legs felt like jello and I kept telling myself to fight through this. I got to 20 minutes and my shins where ready to separate themselves from my body and head home. I continued to push through. Somewhere between 20 and 30 minutes the lady to my right was done and a big guy took over her spot. Since I was listening to my ipod I didn't really notice at first that he was trying to talk to me. It was either that are the fact that I was so overwhelmed with not feeling from my waist down I might have blacked out for a moment. I glanced over towards his direction and realized he was trying to get my attention. I took my headphones off and he said "Hello." I turned and said "hello" but failed to remember that anytime you take your eyes off the target on a treadmill you risk the chance to fly off. Well....I almost did a face plant from losing my focused. I quickly regained, he apologized and I went back to looking forward and holding onto the bars with a death grip. The little heart icon that told you how fast your heart was beating went from 140 to 162 in a second.

By 35 minutes I was feeling pretty good, that I had already accomplished 30 minutes of working out. I even jogged every 8 minutes. BUT that was because I couldn't get that part of the treadmill to shut off. So I jogged...by 40 minutes the sweat was pouring off my face and I looked like I had been working out for hours. If only they knew HA HA HA. When I reached the last 5 minutes the machine began to count down. I felt like I had a small victory, that I should jump up and down, I had made it! When I finally hit 0, I stopped, but the funny thing about being a on a treadmill is when you stop you still feel like your on it. I stepped off the back and felt like I was going to run right into row of treadmills behind me. I stopped, settled myself. At this point I wanted to do the elliptical but they where all full. So before someone stole my treadmill, I jumped back on and did another 15 minutes. Those 15 minutes felt like a walk in the park.

By the time my hour was up I felt like I had run a race. Though to many people it wouldn't of been that exciting, it's not a big deal to accomplish what I did. But for me it was. This is my life, this is my choice and this is what I'm doing. Yes there will be days that I won't want to go, but that's when I will need to dig down even deeper and realize that this is a must, this has to be done. The end result will be great and I can't wait to begin to see it happen!

Though I might be a little sore this morning, I am ready to jump on tonight and get moving! Make this a great day!

Weight loss: 0

Total weight loss: -107 pounds.

Fitness WHAT?!?!?!?

Today is a new day...doing something new tonight. You might want to brace yourself for this, but tonight I will be setting foot into a gym...to work out. HA. Yes I am as shocked as you might be. But I am excited. I am thankful for this opportunity that I would of never had been given if it wasn't for networking....I should say it's something I'd never be able to afford monthly if it wasn't for that. BUT this is something I need, I must do! I am excited about getting this started...should be interesting.

I'm asking for accountability and support. The first week will be the "honeymoon" period...sooner then later it will come to a point that I'll try to find every reason not to go, or what I shouldn't or can't. See all defeating words that are not to be in my mind or vocab. This should be interesting, it should be fun and I'll be honest...there will be some good times...good stories to tell.

This is a new and needed chapter in my life. I am excited to get started, something to look forward to! I'll be sure to share my new experience with you tomorrow!

Let's get ready to work it out!

Weight loss: 0

Total Weight loss: -107 pounds.

Discipline.....or not....

At a very young age we are introduced to discipline. We are disciplined because of something we did that wasn't right or that we did after someone asked us not to. As a young child we are "schooled" in the ways of discipline. But what tends to happen as we get old we only hold tight to certain disciplines....

Lately the most important disciplines I've had in my life I haven't stuck with held tight too....I've failed. I have failed to stay the course, I have failed to dig deep and do what's right. I have failed to see the bigger picture and only focus on the tiny spot in my life that seems to overwhelmed me and lose focus on the path, the goal, the journey...the right discipline.

There are several types of discipline. One is the kind that is enforced when we've done something wrong, that's usually being disciplined for doing an action that was wrong. The other type of discipline is the kind that we need to see something through, sticking to your guns, letting nothing stand in your way...that's the discipline that I need. I am starting a new path of discipline, working out. You need a lot of discipline to get this accomplished and I am holding tight to get this done. Yes it's going to be hard, yes it's not going to always be fun, and I might want to give up...but I won't. I will stay disciplined to get this done, to see the end result, to stop giving excuses!

So here we go...let's go run!

Weight loss: +1

Total Weight loss: -107 pounds