One...

Well one pound decided to join me again. Not frustrated because it's just one, but still...it does bring things back to the basics again when I see that one pound on the scale. Not worried, I will just work again to get it off again. I haven't been sleeping well at all, I got to bed tired but then 2 hours later I am wide awake for a few...eventually I fall back asleep, but I am wondering what's going on with this different sleeping habit. :( Hope it doesn't last.

I'm feeling a little better today but not 100% still. I hope with the nice weekend that all those who have been sick get better before the cold hits again next week. I plan on enjoying my favorite time of year this weekend, I hope you do too!

Pressing on.

Weight loss: +1 (haven't put a + in front of a number in a long time)

Total Weight loss: -104 pounds

Options

Boy do we have options! Ever think about that? I mean really...something small like going to the ATM. Put your card in, you enter your pin number and a screen pops up with options. That's one example...another is going out to eat, endless options. But the flip side to this...all these options have consequences. Good or bad. Doesn't matter. The options we chose result in the consequences we will face. Ok so you might wonder what in the world is she getting at. Let me explain. This whole week I've thought a lot about different options I have related to a multitude of things that are going on in my life. And beside the weight loss I really haven't thought about the consequences of some of my options I'm about to make. Long term that is. I had to say no to an additional commitment someone wanted me to make. I haven't said no to something in a long time. But I thought of my options with this particular request and think of the consequences...time away from my family, not being able to give 100%, money...so I made the choice to decline and it felt weird.

I'm so glad that the option...really the choice to get rid of this weight has lead to an unbelievable consequence..better health, looking and feeling better, a new attitude, a better out look on life, committing to something and seeing it through. Very thankful that I made this choice.

Weight loss: 0

Total weight loss: -105 pounds.

*I'm very excited that this weekend we will be taking some new pictures...honestly I'm tired of seeing the "old me". :)

Under the weather

I am under the weather and would rather be in my bed. UGH. Not sure with all the weather changing or the fact that most of the people in my office have been sick, but this isn't a fun time of year. Needless to say I don't have a lot on my mind other then sleep and getting better.

I did lose 3 more pounds but I am counting that from being sick. :(

Stay healthy!

Weight loss: -3 pounds

Total Weight loss: -105 pounds.

The past is still very real in the present.

Today...well today is a hard day for me. I actually thought as years go by that these feelings and emotions go away, with time. But it seems like each year that passes it is a reminder of all the pain and hurt from a decision. I am blessed because out of all the feelings of sadness I have joy, I have joy of a beautiful little girl. She's my joy. :) Last night she was so precious, she came into my room gave me the biggest hug and took her little hands put them on my face and gave me a kiss. It was beautiful and my heart once again was filled with joy. In spite of all that happens in our lives now more then ever we need to find the joy, the good, the positive, the wonderful in life. To many times we are burdened with bad news, heartache, hurt, frustration, worry. But we must not forget that all those things can be laid at HIS feet and that we don't have to carry the burden.

This weekend I had a chance to do a lot of reflecting and start to prepare my mind for the final lap to get me to my goal. I won't let anything bring me down, stop me, or discourage me from completing this journey. I've come to far to let anything stop me now. I am excited about this race and finishing strong. At times I've had to walk or even stop, but I've continued and I will continue to press on. Finish well!

Weight loss: -1 pound

Total weight loss: -102 pounds.