Another number

Ok...that was frustrating. I wrote this long blog and everything, went to hit publish and I received an error and lost it all. Grrr..oh well. I was reporting that this morning I reached a new number. Not only with losing 55 pounds but also my weight number is the lowest it's been in about 8-9 years. I am pretty excited. I reached this point about a week ago, but I wanted to put more numbers between it before I reported. I hope that makes sense.

Today I plan on trying all my clothes on today and get rid of all the clothes that are to big for me. I am done with that part of my life and I won't go back. Of course I might only have 1-2 outfits left. HA.

Have a great weekend my friends. I will report my measurements tomorrow.

Weight loss: -1 pound

Total weight loss: -55 pounds and -28.75 inches.

Why can't I

Why can't I get a handle on getting back to the basics? This week has totally been an shot in the dark regarding sticking with the plan. I haven't cheated, but I also haven't given my body all the foods that I normally give. It's almost like I have taking a mini vacation but still gone through the motions. I can't believe that on Sunday I will have been doing this for 3 months! 90 days I have created a new habit and lifestyle for myself. I have to honestly say that when I started this 90 days seemed like it would be forever, 3 months seemed impossible but I'm here, I've arrived to what I thought wasn't possible. I'm so proud of the accomplishment that I've made to this point and excited to see what another 90 days brings.

I tried on my bridesmaid dress that I'll be wearing for my cousines wedding next month. (only 3 weeks away at this point) And I was suprised when my mom pulled the back of my dress because I had a noticable gapping hole that needs to be fixed. These moments are bitter sweet as I am very excited that I have lost all this weight, but this is more money to spend. Since I have lost this weight a lot of the clothes that I have are to large and fall off. I don't have the money to purchase any clothes so bobby pins and the roll techniqe have come in handy. I know that sooner then later that won't be able to be the fix. I'll have to maybe result to ducktape to hold everything together till I am at a weight that I have to purchase clothes. It's all a good feeling for sure. :)

Weight loss: 0

Total weight loss: -54 pounds and -28.75 inches.

Here we go

Sometime in life you just have to take a step back, pause for a moment and realize what's really going on around you. Well my friends...I'm doing that right now. I'll let you know how that works out for me in the next day or so.

Have a fab day! Keep looking onward.

Weight loss: -1 pound

Total Weight loss: -54 pounds and -28.75 inches.

Almost 3 months

I can't believe it will be 3 months on the 25th that I started this and I have already made it this far. I feel like I am slowing down, not really staying as focused as I have needed to be. I don't want to fall back into the old habits that I once had, get to a certain point, be confident and then let the old habits slip back in. I refuse to let that happen. This is the time that I must really buckle down and focus. I know I can and will do this. My focus has just been distracted lately by other things in my life.....but that's nothing new. :)

So when I weighed myself this morning I was looking at a different number, one that went up by 1 pound. UGH, I know it's just 1 pound, but man...come on! I know my water in take hasn't been good at all for the last 3 days. I think I've only averaged 60 oz of water instead of my 120 like I normally do. I know it makes a big difference, so I need to get back to what I normally do. DRINK!


Weight loss: +1

Total Weight Loss: -53 pounds and -28.75 inches

Selfishness

This statement won't surprise anyone...but we are the most selfish people around. Lately in my circle the selfishness of people had reared it's ugly head in a big way. I don't right this and not admit that in my life I have thought only of myself in situations, unaware of what the consequences would be or how it would effect other people. Those choices that I've made I either have lived with the outcome that's not always good, it's ruined friendships, made wedges between people and forever changes the direction of your life. I know that there are people in this world that it's all about them and they don't care. Those people are toxic and should never be brought into your circle, they will only bring frustration, anger and disappointment into your life. ALL things that we need to stay away from.

But through all this selfishness lately it has lead me to a lot of inward soul searching. I have stepped back from what's going on around me and realized a lot of things, how people truly are, how blessed we are to have a God that loves us no matter what, how I want to be as a person, who I had been. This weight loss isn't just about losing weight and being thinner or improving my health-all those things are great, but this journey is also about an understanding of who I am, where my life has been and where I am headed. This journey is a chance for me to reflect on the inner self and the places I need to improve. WE get 1 life, 1 chance to do this....why live it in a way that's only about "you" instead of living it in a way that is pleasing and brings glory and joy to the lives around you. Food for thought...."Never make someone a priority when they make you an option." (thank you mom for sharing this!)

Weight loss: 0

Total Weight loss: -54 pounds and -28.75 inches.

Ever feel like...

Do you ever feel like when things are going along so well, that there are so many things, people, thoughts that try to stop you? I feel like that, I've felt like that for a few days now. I'm moving along, doing well and there are so many "thing" that are trying to make me stumble or get distracted. It's very overwhelming sometimes because if I just let go a little then I'd be defeated. Not sure if that makes sense, but not sure how else to describe it. A lot of prayer, journal and talking to myself (yes it's pretty funny if you drive past me, I do talk to myself...takes a strong person to admit it.) HA. But that's how I am getting through these moments.

Didn't feel so well yesterday, so I didn't have enough water or protein...I can tell today. Funny how you get use to your body feeling a certain way and when you don't give it enough stuff that you feel tired and blah. I feel tired and blah. But I am back to drinking what I need today and giving my body the protein that it needs.

Weight loss: -2 pounds

Total weight loss: -54 pounds and -28.75 inches.

Did I make the right choice?

I never thought that I would have some anxiety while attending an summer event. But I did yesterday. Yesterday my best friend Russ got us tickets to the Dayton Air show in Dayton of course. I had never been, so I was very excited to go and see what it was all about. Though in the back of my mind I was a little nervous regarding the food and being outside all day in the hot weather.

The show was amazing, the company was good and I keep the water bottle full. BUT when it came to eating I couldn't bring myself to give in. See this event you couldn't being your own coolers in, so anything like a turkey sandwich wasn't possible. So you are at the mercy of the event food. It was everything from hot dogs to funnel cakes. Nothing good in between. So I made the commitment to not each anything. Was it a smart move, not really because by the end of the event I was starving. I was also nervous that eating that type of food would make me sick, and who wants to spend a hot day in a port a potty...NOT ME! I keep the water coming so I knew I wouldn't get dehydrated. But it really posses the question, how are you going to attend events like this and still maintain the program. After the show was over we met my cousins for dinner and was back to making the good choices. But I know that missing a whole day of food really did something to my body.

I'm glad I had this experience because it really helped me understand how I'd react in this type of situation but it also opened me up to what's really out there.

Weight loss: -1 pound

Total Weight loss: -52 pounds and -28.75 inches.