Let it be

I like to "people watch". Yes, I might be that person sitting in the middle of the mall "acting" like I am just waiting for a friend...but really I'm wondering what's going on with you. Questioning if your power went out because of what you picked to wear, or why you look like your going to punch the next person in the face if they get in your way...oh yes, saw someone like that today...Yikes! I wonder why we're so fascinated by people, where they come from, where their going, what's their story. You get what I'm saying.

Well the reason I bring this up is because I did that today. A pair of pants I purchased a month ago are to big. To big to the point that even a belt won't help! (Sweet) I took them back to the store that I purchased them from....side note about returning things it's FRUSTRATING. Why, because what you paid for them a month ago ISN"T what you get back...I'd go on about that but that's not my point. Anyways, I took the pants back and exchanged them for something else-in a smaller size. :) But while I was waiting to check out, in front of me was a mother and daughter waiting to pay. The daughter was probably 15-16 years old. At first I thought they where purchasing clothes for the mother, since I was at a store that has clothes for people over the size 14. But then quickly I was taken back when I realized that they where actually purchasing clothes for the daughter. The young girls face...one of embarrassment. How sad, I wanted to walk over and just say to her...this isn't it, this isn't what life is all about. We live in a world now-so different from when I was 15-16 years old-this world is fast food this, and fast that, and in a box this and rush through dinner, super size this and sugar that. It's not the life that a young adult should have-no one should actually.....when did all this spiral out of control?

I hope that soon in that young girls life someone or something will take hold and she'll be able to feel confident about herself and her body. Doing this life change for me isn't only for me-but it's for my daughter...that she will learn young the right things...the right way and that I'll do my best to teach her the things she'll need to make better choices then I did.

Weight loss: 0 (still good with this...didn't add anything to it..always a plus)
To Date: -21.2 pounds and -9.25 inches.

Laugh more and celebrate!

I heard a pretty funny quote this week and I think this might be the answer to why we gain weight...I mean serious now, this could really be the key. ;) "We all need to laugh, laughter is the best medicine. If you don't laugh and hold it in, it will just make your hips spread." See I told you that I think that's been my problem, I need to laugh more. :) Well not really...I love to laugh and have a great time. But maybe someone should jump on this idea and see if this is what's been the problem for all these years. :)

I'm excited to be at week 3 as of tomorrow. Hard to believe how fast this has gone. Even though this week has been tough because I've been sick, I've still stepped on the scales every morning and watched the number either stay the same or get smaller. Someone asked me the other day why I was so happy about this process...(WHAT?) after I picked my mouth off the floor and stepped back for a second my response was simple...Why wouldn't I be? And I explained that this isn't a prison sentence...being over weight and feeling/looking miserable is a prison sentence. I'm paroling..I'm setting this part of my life free...forever! I'm learning who I really am, why I let myself get this way and why I'll never let myself get/be this way every again.

Leave the past in the past-it's there for a reason. Celebrate the present because no one is ever guaranteed the future! Enjoy today-enjoy your loved ones and take nothing...NOTHING for granted.

Weight loss: 0 (YEP and I'm glad about that...odd I know but that also means I didn't add any numbers to my weight)
Total lost: -21.2 pounds and -9.25 inches. I will take measurements again on Sunday.

Almost 21

Wow, I just realized that I'm almost at 21 days in this process. I have to say that it's gone by pretty quickly. I'm still not 100%-actually don't really feel 50%, but I'm still sticking to all the things that I need to be doing. Yesterday I didn't drink all the water I needed, I was about 32 oz short and what a difference that makes. But when you don't feel so great it's a little more of a challenge. I am hoping by the weekend that I'll be feeling much better.

Small "yeahs" as I like to call them. My ring that I wear on my thumb use to be tight, which I always thought was good so it wouldn't fall off. Well now it slides all over and I'll have to decided on a different finger to wear it on. Also, I am wearing a new pair of pants that I had purchased (at a smaller size) 7 months ago and was never able to wear them....today I can!

I was reminded yesterday while talking with someone that it's so important to share with people what your doing, not only does it keep you accountable but the encouragement is greater. People understand, they relate and know that it's not easy. No one ever said that life would be easy, but that doesn't mean it can't be fun. So let's make this fun!

Weight loss: +.2 (Total: -21.2 pounds and -9.25 inches.

**Side note: I caught this fact on line....yikes! Not sure what's worse..the calories for 1/2 the day or that it's just like eating 8 White Castle hamburgers...sorry dad. ;)

Cinnabon Regular Caramel Pecanbun

1,100 calories
56 g fat (10 g saturated, 5 g trans)
47 g sugars
141 g carbohydrates
Cinnabon and malls are inseparable. Consider it a symbiotic relationship: Researchers have found that we're turned on by the smell of cinnamon rolls, and further studies have shown that we're more likely to spend money when we're thinking about sex. But just because Cinnabon might be good for Gap doesn’t mean it’s all good for you. This dangerously bloated bun contains nearly an entire day’s worth of fat, two and a half times the unhealthy trans fats you should get in a day, and more than half of your daily allotment of calories. (For those keeping score, that’s as much as you’ll find in eight White Castle hamburgers).

Over the 1st hill

I'm still feeling under the weather and the last two days have been a bit challenging to say the least. Today was the hardest because I was at a seminar all day long so my routine was all out of sorts. It will be interesting to see once I start feeling better and back in my routine how the weight loss will be. I had many challenges but I feel that I did the best I could with what was presented in front of me. I'm giving myself a pat on the back because I didn't cheat even though I had many chances today to do so. I feel like I am mentally stronger each day with what my focus is and what I need to do to get rid of this weight.

Weight loss: -2 pounds. :) Total lost: -21.4 pounds and -9.25 inches.

Feeling sick..

Being sick is never fun....today I've been sick. Interesting enough too that when I'm sick I can't think of anything. So tonight I'll report on my weight loss and I'll hopefully have more to write tomorrow.

Weight loss: -1 pound. Total lost: -19.4 pounds and -9.25 inches.

Numbers, numbers, numbers...

Do you ever feel like your brain is on overload with numbers. Remember your account number, your ss. number, phone numbers, how much is or isn't in your account. The numbers seem to really be running through my head today. I have a number in my head today that I just can't shake, it's the number that will finally put this weight out of my life. I'm excited about one day seeing this number. I can honestly say I don't remember the last time I was at that number. But I am looking forward to being that number again...soon.

This is going to be a pretty busy week but I am looking forward to seeing what numbers I come up with. :)

Weight loss: -.2 and measurements -3.25

Total weight loss: 18.4 pounds and 9.25 inches.

Happy Mothers Day~

Happy Mothers Day! I've been a mother for 4 years, almost 5 and it's so hard to believe she'll be 5. But so blessed to be giving this honor to be her mother. It's such an amazing responsibility. Yesterday she and I spent most of the morning and afternoon running from store to store. To me the best time to hear how Makayla really feels is when I'm driving around. We talked about everything from the numbers on the radio station, school to why we do the things we do. Spending this time with her when it's just her and me, it's a blessing, it's a memory and I'm so thankful that I have this time with her. I am thankful,too, that FINALLY I woke up and realized that my life was more important than just letting the "weight" be my life. I wouldn't give up these times with her for anything and I want, will be (Lord willing) spending many more times with her-making those precious memories.

Today has been a good day....the habit is starting to take shape-I have hips! :) I'm starting to see them again and that's pretty cool.

Weight loss: -2 :) (Total loss: 18.2 pounds) I'll report on measurements later tonight. :)

Happy Mothers' Day.

** Also thank you to everyone who comments-it's not that I don't want to respond, it's that every time I do I get an error-so please know that I really appreciate them and you guys rock! :)