A little to much celebration...

Well...from the beginning I said that I'd always would be honest, admit if I "cheated"....well yesterday I did. Not proud of it, but I did it... Last night I attended an event at the Pro Football Hall of Fame and usually when you attend any of those events the food doesn't always weigh on the "healthy" side. Last night was no different. (I'm not making excuses-just sharing about what happened) I knew that I'd be there till at least 6:30-7 and by the time I got home I wouldn't really want to cook a whole meal for myself. So I looked at my options...I had the fruit and the mini hamburger, but what got me was the chips and salsa. I went for it. Honestly it was good, I won't lie. BUT I had guilt when I was done...then when I came home I was still hungry, so I had a bowl of cereal. Not only did I do the chips, but I had another bowl of cereal. Ok, not the right choices BUT it's not going to be a habit.

This weekend will be a test. Tomorrow I am going to an event with a friend that will have us outside all day long. One of the rules to the place we're going is you can't bring a cooler in....so that means you have to purchase their food. Normally it wouldn't be a problem but tomorrow we'll be there for 6-7 hours...we'll see how that turns out. I'll report on Sunday. :)

Have a blessed rest of the day and a good weekend!

Weight loss: -1 pound

Total Weight Loss: -51 pounds and -28.75 inches.

Still pretty excited...

I must say that when I woke up this morning I was glad to see that I had still lost the 1 pound I needed to make it 50 pounds. That's very encouraging to me because I am more focused on this then I have ever been. I hardly slept last night because I started to think about the next step, what I'll eventually look like. I think I've shared this before, but I have never thought of myself smaller then I've been. I have always seen myself as a "big" person. So for the first time in my life I can "actually" visualize what I will look like. It's a catch 22 for sure...about 14 years of my life I've been overweight, unhappy and sad because I had no drive to make myself better, make myself the person that I know I should, could and would be. But now, that's all gone, those old feelings and ways of thinking...gone! I am making myself better and I am happy...this is a great thing!

Weight Loss: 0

Total weight loss: -50 pounds and -28.75 inches. *I'll never stop smiling when I type -50 :)

The big 5-0

There will probably be no other time in my life that I'll be excited about the number 50! Usually the number 50 is when someone is turning that age and it's a life defining moment. Well this morning I had a life defining moment....I've lost 50 pounds! I can't believe that this day is finally here. And actually it's a month ahead of what I thought. A month from today I'll be attending my cousins wedding and my goal when I started this was to lose 50 pounds by his wedding. MAN, I wonder how much I'll lose by the time the wedding is here.

I'm excited to see what each week holds and so thankful for where I've been and where I'm headed. So how should I celebrate this 50 pounds.....the old me would treat myself to something like ice cream...but it really wasn't a treat because I'd eat it all the time. Same with Starbucks. So I think I'll spend it just enjoying my accomplishments and know that when I hit my goal there will be some serious celebration. :)

Weight loss: -1 pound

Total weight loss: -50 pounds and -28 inches.

Ordinary Miracle

I'm not sure if you've heard the song Ordinary Miracle by Sarah McLachan, but I highly recommend that you listen to it. Sure puts a lot of things into perspective. It talks about making the ordinary of the day is a miracle. It's so true, we've been given another day for a reason. Some people in our lives are not as lucky, we don't always understand why people leave this world when they do-but it's God's plan. I heard the other day when we tell God our plan, He laughs. It's because it's not about us. That is something, every day I am reminded of. This is not about me, this isn't my plan...this is His plan. I take nothing for granted.....

I stepped on the scale this morning to see the same number I saw yesterday morning-so it's not a bad thing. I continue to stay the course and know that one of these mornings this week I'll reach a goal that I never thought would be possible. At that point I will have 98 pounds to lose. I might as well make it 100 pounds to lose...what's 2 more right :)

Weight loss: 0

Total Weight loss: -49 pounds and -28.75 inches.

1 more....

I never knew what I'd feel like when I lost 50 pounds...I didn't think that the day would ever come. I can't say in my life that I've ever lost 50 pounds, I can say that I've gained 50...that's not something to be proud of. But now I can look at my life and be proud of something that has caused so much pain and emptiness. I can actually start to be proud of what I'm doing, where I'm headed and the changes that I've made, am making. Well I am only 1 pound away from losing 50 pounds. I can hardly believe it, I weighed myself 6 times today...I guess I was hoping for one more pound to put me at 50..but I will take the 3 that it gave me.

These past few days I've been fighting cravings, wants and old habits. It's been pretty hard actually because I found myself walking around the Giant Eagle last night in the candy and chip isle. Then it hit me, what was I doing...torching myself for no reason. I then went and visited the produce isle and bought blueberries. I understand that this is going to be a constant challenge, battle between my old self and my new self. I know that in the end...the new self will come out way ahead of anywhere I've ever been!

Weight loss: -3 pounds

Total Weight loss: -49 pounds and -28.75 inches.

Beating the cravings

Oh man, right now I could eat a Hershey bar with peanut butter. OH YEAH, that's what's been on my mind all afternoon. It's pretty frustrating because I sure have a lot of other things I could be thinking of. BUT I haven't given into the temptation. I have just been staying focused and out of the kitchen. :)

There hasn't been much other then that little statement, so I hope all have had a great weekend!

Stay strong...eat healthy and laugh often.

Weight loss: 0

Total Weight loss: -46 pounds and -28.75 inches.