Friday, June 17, 2011

Summer daze....


I love days that are semi cool and the ski is a bright blue. Those are the best days, when all I want to do is either drive till it ends or sit on the beach over looking the ocean taking it all in. Well majority of the time neither of those get to happen. I spend time sitting at a desk or in a building looking outside wishing/hoping to get out and enjoy it.

Summer is full of new and exciting things. I can't help but remember the summers past with baseball games, trips to Pittsburgh, cook outs, enjoying friends and family. Those are the best memories. This summer is no different. It will be full of fun, warm days, swimming pools and new memories. Isn't it great that each day we're given a new start to make new memories...new journeys....new things to talk about. Love it!

This summer will be a little different because I'll need to be very creative in things that we do...things that don't cost money. Doesn't matter how the economy is right now, I just need to pinch every little penny, dime, nickel that comes into my life. It's a different way of thinking, living....not sure it works with me. But doesn't matter, it has too.

As for the weight issue, many of you have emailed and asked how it's going. Best way to put it, it's going. I haven't caved or gained it all back. Just at a stand still. I don't like the stand still but when one thing in life changes like money...everything changes. It's impossible to keep one life style when the rest of your life doesn't fit. I am hoping to get back to it soon and back into the routine of that life. But for now I am making due and staying this course.....thank you for keeping me accountable!

Much love-enjoy this beautiful day!

Monday, June 13, 2011

What in the world....



What in the world is going on in my life? That's what I was asking myself this morning. It's more of an inward question actually. I feel all out of sorts, not the Amanda that I am use to. Not the Amanda that others are use too. I feel quiet, I feel out of place and I feel uncertain. I know that these moments will pass but right now I just wonder what lesson I am trying to learn or what I need to take away from all this. I see my life, I see how I thought it was going to be and it's like a fantasy...it's not real.

This past weekend was a blessing. It was what I needed, it's what we needed. Makayla celebrated another wonderful birthday and she just amazes me. She is truly a joy in my life and I am so thankful for her. She always knows how to make people feel welcome. I watched her yesterday as her little friends arrived she introduced each of them to each other. Makayla always made sure that each of them was taken care of and that they felt that they where important. She's 6 and I have so much to learn from that. I pray that she will never lose that...the rest of her life I pray that she never makes anyone feel unloved or uncared for. I know well enough that there are enough people out their that make people feel that way. The world needs more 6 year old's like Makayla to show that it's not about them. We need to protect, care and love each other. That's just what she did with her little friends.

This is a new week with a lot of hmmm's to go around. But I know this, I am thankful for a new day. Enjoy the moments! Love one another and take nothing for granted!