I'm here, I'm here.

Was given a reminder this morning that it's never my plan but it's GOD'S plan...always. I'm out of a routine so it's hard to get back into it....I know it will come, I know it will all come back together...this is just s speed bump.

Make it a great weekend.

Weight loss: 0

Total Weight loss: -114 pounds

Back at it....again

So after a week of being a slacker...ok not really a slacker, just super busy I made it back to the gym yesterday. It felt great. Today...haven't made it in, but I still have 4 more days till the new week starts :)

I have realized something about myself. I fight with me. Let me explain. Yesterday before I went to the gym I went through every reason I shouldn't, couldn't go. Each reason was petty and I fought back with a reason why I needed to. At the end, my "good" side won. I told myself that I am not doing this for anyone else, I'm not doing this for anyone's good, I am doing this for me and that I have to do it. There is NO other choice. I didn't realize that this inner battle that I am dealing with is getting louder...not just on the working out, but on a lot of areas of my life.

I'm strong, not just outward but inward. Yes I have my moments, everyone does but I made a decision long ago (a year now) that I wouldn't let myself lose the battle...the battle of negative thoughts, down talk or talking myself out of things. I am committed to the end, to the final result; I am in it to win it. YEP it's corny but it's true! I am in this to see everything through...one life, once chance, no do over’s-so get in the game and get it done. :)

Weight loss: 0

Weight loss: -114 pounds

Hello World

Hello my name is....remember me?!? Do you ever feel like you've had one of those days that you are re explaining who you are, what defines you....well that's been the case for the last 5 days. It's quiet odd really. Normally I've never been one that needs to explain who I am or what defines me. But things are REALLY changing in my life and I am doing this new "who I am" deal all the time.

I feel like this name tag, I might just get one that say's "Hello World, here I am." I'm in the middle of a juggling act and I not very good at it for the moment, but I am practicing a lot to get better. There is a song that's out by One Republic and it's called Good Life....if you haven't heard it, Google it! This is a song that I've been listening to a lot and I mean, when I am in the car it's the only song playing most of the time. But it's about mind set...it's about attitude. Everyday you make a choice...will this be a good day or not? I chose that it will be a good day everyday no matter what happens, how much rain falls and how much the thunder shakes...it's going to be a good day, a good life. So when I re introduce myself daily to this world I do it with a smile and I know that this is a good life.

Oh and today I went back to the gym for the first time in a week...I know that was a fail, but I'm back at it. I enjoyed it, pushed through it and was glad the guy next to me didn't have a heart attack...it was a little scary because he tried to run...(trust me he wasn't a runner) but he tried...but when he was finished I thought we would need to call 911...but he turned out to be ok. Be careful out there in this world....even on the treadmill. ;)

Weight loss: -1 pound

Total Weight loss: -114 pounds