Relax

I'm thankful for today, I'm thankful for Friday and I'm thankful that this week...August is over. That being said I am getting back on the 3 day start again. I'm thankful that it's a holiday weekend....a heads up for next week, I might be unavailable to update due to being on jury duty. So we'll see....

That being said, have a fun, safe, relaxing and enjoyable Labor day weekend!

Weight loss: 0

Total Weight loss: -83 pounds.

Food

So today is a bring in food at work day. I have to say that it's one of the hardest days for me so far. My desk sits directly across the way from the table with all the food on it. It's ok, I'm staying strong and realizing it's not worth giving in today. I just might think of installing a door at my cube in the next week. HA

Weight loss: -1 pound

Total weight loss: -83 pounds.

Spending Time...

Sometimes I think...wait, all the time...we get so wrapped up in what's going on right now that we don't take time to really enjoy what's REALLY going on around us. Last night I had the opportunity to included my daughter into the Young Professionals group that I am apart of. Even though the stress of getting all the things together for the event and making sure we had all our bases covered, it was a blessing to spend that time with her. We had such a wonderful time just the two of us, laughing and walking through the McKinley Museum and talking about all sorts of things. Those are the memories that I cling to when I get wrapped up in the other stresses of life. She is my blessing and I am so thankful that God has allowed me to be her mother.

Because the theme for last nights' event was Bring out the kid in you, we didn't have the best food choices...so I had pizza last night. I paid for it this morning...gained a pound, but I won't beat myself up over it, it was just one night, having a great time with my daughter and charishing it.

Weight loss: +1

Total Weight loss: -82 pounds.

Someday

I love putting clothes on and seeing that they are to big or no longer lay right on me because I'm no longer that size. I enjoy seeing less of myself. I think it's very rewarding to see this progress...but I some times still see myself as I once was. The old me, the unhealthy me...even through I have now lost 83 pounds....that's a child in middle school. I still see myself as the unhealthy, unhappy, overweight person I once was. I know, as with everything in life it all takes time. I just never realized that I had buried so much pain in my life and now I'm dealing with it. The mental part is the hardest. The self talk track is difficult because it has to be broken. It's like a record, it keeps spinning over and over again till I take hold and break it. I'm not the same person outwardly as I once was, and my mind needs to realize that.

Seeing new numbers is always really positive and exciting...I can't wait for the 100 mark. It's so much closer now then ever...(duh). But there has never been any other time in my life that I have lost this much weight or been so close to a goal.

Weight loss: -3 pounds

Total Weight loss: -83 pounds.

I've fallen..

I have fallen into a funk. This happens in my life from time to time as it does in anyones life. I have been trying to push it off for a few weeks, but it hit me this weekend. It hit me hard. Here is a little insite to what happens when I fall into a funk, I bring everything inward, I do a lot of thinking and I'd rather just be by myself. When it's happened in the past, it has usually been a good thing in the end, I come out of it refreshed and ready to go. I pray that the same happens now. I'm not sure how long this one will last, though I hope it's just a few days, we shall see.

I am thankful for those in my life that love me and care about what's going on in my life, good or bad. I am thankful that I have been given a new day.....I am thankful and blessed.

I hope that during this time too that I will get a refresh sense to hit the weight loss again. Though I am still on target, I haven't given it the 100% that I have been. I think this will also be good for me to refocus my energy on the things that are important.

Weight loss: -2 pounds

Total Weight loss: -80 pounds.