Let's get funny!

It's time to tell a funny on myself. Just needs to happen. Some of you already know that a few weeks ago I had knee surgery. Not to worry, they saved my knee. Just kidding, nothing to be saved. Just fixed. But anyways my surgery was December 23rd, early Christmas present for myself. If you've known me long enough you will know that I get nervous about everything and anything. It's all the unknowns that set me over the edge sometimes. I like to know, not really a big fan of surprises unless the surprises come in the form of diamonds or things like that....

For weeks leading up to my surgery I asked anyone and everyone who had ever had a surgery what it was like, what to expect. I needed details. Even the morning of my surgery I was quizzing my dad on what he went through 5 years earlier with his knee surgery. I really should of just kept to myself and realized that I was in the best hands with the best surgeon in the state...all would be OK. But anyways the morning of my surgery I kept telling myself that all would be fine and I wouldn't have any problems. Side note-my dad is great! Many already know this, but he took his whole day to go with me, sit forever and be protective of me. It was great to have him there with me.

We arrive, check in and wait...it really will be the theme of the day WAIT. I waited about 30 minutes before they took me back for pre op. Once that was done (40 minutes later) they brought my dad back to sit and WAIT with me. My surgery was to be at 1pm, but unlike the airport even though you show up 2 hours early doesn't mean your going to get to your surgery (aka plane) on time. After an hour and 45 minutes of waiting my dad left to get lunch. Something at the moment I wanted to do as well....but he left and I waited. Finally after 2 hours and 15 minutes of waiting, it was time to fix this knee. As they begin to wheel me back to the operating room I begin to have this nervous feeling and panic begins to set in. I thought for a moment I'd just hop off the bed and tell them we'd need to do this another day or maybe I'd just pass out from being nervous. Neither happened....but as we turned the corner to this very WHITE and wide hallway all the nervous and panic left. I don't remember much once I got into the room other then one nurse writing the number 14:21 which I assumed was the time and the other nurse strapping my arms to the table. (not something I enjoyed as I don't like to be confined) But before I realized it the other nurse said "Amanda all you need to do is sleep." And I did. Boy oh boy was it the BEST sleep I had EVER had. I know I dreamed, but don't remember what. But all of a sudden I went from a peaceful sleep to waking up feeling like someone had run over my knee.

The two nurses that had taken me into surgery where now wheeling the bed to recovery. I had an oxygen mask over my nose and mouth which I wanted to take off as soon as possible. I was in a haze but I could feel major pain. I also felt the side of my face was wet, but quickly realized that it was tears. First thought, I was paralyzed because I couldn't move my right knee, but that soon vanished when I thought to myself if I was paralyzed I wouldn't feel pain...duh! First DUH moment...

The bed came to a stop in room 22...pre op I was in room 5...moving backwards...not always a good thing. Actually never a good thing. But anyways, I woke up and the first thing I noticed was the clock on the wall said 3:45pm. And then I realized an older lady standing at a computer typing away, checking monitors. I needed her attention fast because this pain that I first felt went from someone running over my leg to a hammer bashing it in over and over again. I didn't know what was happening, where I was or why I was there...and I began to cry. Actually I burst-ed into tears. Immediately the nurse came to the side of the bed and said "it's OK, are you in pain." If I actually had any sense about me at that moment I think my reply would of been "Hmm what do you think, maybe...a little." But my reply was "WHERE AM I and IT HURTS SO BAD PLEASE MAKE IT STOP." Which she replied with, I am so sorry, you just had knee surgery and we will give you morphine. Hallelujah!!!! Which she did three times before I left....looking back I laugh because I can only imagine what that nurse was thinking. She did tell me it was OK, I wasn't the first to cry and I won't be the last. Always good to know...I don't like being last ;)

I'm on the road to recovery....it's had it's moments but I'm thankful that I can laugh at myself.

Hello 2012

I almost forgot that I had a blog....really, I did until I was reading someone else's and realized how cool it would be to have time to sit down and write about whatever you wanted....then I remembered "Hello, you use to do that." So when I logged into my page and realized how very sad it was and that I had neglected it for 2 plus months....I realized that I missed it. I also realized in my journal (not on line, actually written journal-it) has been neglected for 4 1/2 months....Yikes! I missed being able to write about whatever was on my mind, maybe some insight I had from being out in the world that day....or just to say hello. A new year is here and I bet all of us have some sort of optimistic idea that it's going to be a great year. Why not, it's new, fresh and full of blank pages just waiting to be scribbled on or colored in. I know I am, guilty as charged. I believe that we have the ability to make each year the way we want it, but we just usually let the world, other people and all the blah of life take over and then when we look back on it we forget all the really great, fun, wonderful and exciting things that happened. So this year....2012 I will make a conscious effort to embrace the great, positive, wonderful and exciting things that will happen. Yes I get it, there will be valleys and moments that we won't want to walk in, but that's ok....it's life. It will happen, but I will enjoy the ride. So....what's new and exciting so far with your new year?