2 weeks and counting.

It's been two weeks today that I started this program and I have to say that week two was way more challenging then I what I thought. BUT it's been OK because I have stayed the course and over come the obstacles that I have had. It's mostly been a mental battle then anything else. Last night I was watching some t.v. and they did a segment on the woman that wants to be the heaviest woman alive. She's now tipping the scales at 1,000 pounds. 1,000 pounds....really? What makes a person decided one day that life is much better at 1,000 pounds. They interviewed her boyfriend who said he loves her look. Now please don't get me wrong...but this is just out of control. I know that we all deal with our own fears, insecurities but it comes back to what did it for me...why would I allow myself to become sick, possible death because I liked food more then my well being. Hopefully that same light bulb will go off for this woman before her heart decides too.

Today was also a small challenge because I had lunch at Chick Fil A with my mom and daughter. I loved Chick Fil A. It was once one of my favorite places to eat-but today....not so much. What I use to get was the Caesar wrap with all the Caesar dressing...not anymore. Today I had a grilled chicken sandwich. Fighting those old habits has become a daily battle...but it's a battle that I am winning at because every night when I go to bed, I know that I've done this right...that tomorrow I'll do it again and that's a great feeling.

Weight loss: -1 pound. Total to date -16.2 pounds and 6 inches. Tomorrow I'll do my weekly measurements. :) Have a great night!

Little accomplishments

I'm celebrating the little accomplishments such as my rings fitting my other hand, putting my jeans on and they are not tight, my skin is looking so much better. These are the little things that keep me going-knowing that there is progress.

Last night was another difficult night. I really struggled to make dinner and then eat it. I was really tired of cooking and then even eating it once I've made it. I was pretty glad that last night was the last evening I needed to pack my lunch-I need a break. :) But I am staying strong with the program and I am feeling much better day by day.

"Every day may not be good but there is something good in every day."

Weight loss: 0 and I'm ok with that! :)

Total: -15.2 pounds and 6 inches.

The battle is on!

Last night....I was ready to throw in the towel. I didn't feel like cooking, I didn't feel like packing my lunch, I felt like eating a bowl of cereal and maybe some ice cream..well whatever else I could find. For the first time since I've started this I really had to fight the "old" habits and really dig deep to understand what I was feeling. I didn't give in, I cooked my food, made my lunch and stayed away from the kitchen. :) I do think though that the tv automatically knows when your on a diet because for your tv only every commercial is food...I'm just saying. :)

Looking back on last night and realizing how frustrated I was and how I wanted to just give in...make me realize that this is much bigger than just the weight loss-for me it's about becoming a healthier adult and making better choices. I know that what happened last night will not be the last, but I am determined to see this through and to get to my goal! Most of all though I am making this my lifestyle for life!

Weight loss: -1 pound. Total so far 15.2 pounds and 6 inches. :)

Am I mentally ready..

This morning I weighed in and I only lost -.2. For a moment I found myself questioning what I'm doing. Is this right, is it working, am I doing everything I need to be doing? All the questions started to rush through my mind. But then I stopped and reminded myself that I am doing the right thing, it is working and I am on a path that I need to be on. My mental talk track for years has been one of defeat. Talking myself out of it, bringing myself down, thinking that I already know what other people would say. It's very defeating and it really played a big part on how I lived my life. It hasn't just been this weight loss program that's brought me to this place, but many things in the last 1-2 years that have made me switch my talk track. Encouraging myself, listening to what people really say and understanding that life isn't about waiting around to be accepted but to be happy with who I am as a person and get the task done. Whatever that might be-get it done and do it with a smile. :)

I still believe that my body is on strike. It doesn't like it one minute that I've switched everything up. But I have also noticed small improvements that I've missed-such as getting into a pair of dress pants this morning that I haven't worn in over a year-they fit! I also find my rings are sliding around a little on my fingers. I also tried a necklace on and didn't feel like I was being chocked to death-you know since that's such a "in look". HA! But these are all things that are to be celebrated, it's the little things that make this journey exciting!

Weight loss: -.2 Total loss: -14.2 pounds and 6 inches.

Here's how it went...

Well, as I shared yesterday, last night I would be eating out for the first time since I started this plan. I did my homework before I went-checked out their menu online. Funny how I've had dinner at the Winking Lizard several times, each time I'd order the same thing and would never really look at anything else. So when I pulled the menu up on line yesterday I was surprised to see other "healthier" choices I could have. But I played it safe. The waitress was great-she was really understanding when I told her I needed to really modify my order. I ordered a 8 oz grilled chicken breast with nothing on it, 1 cup of steamed broccoli and a spinach salad with just tomatoes and cucumbers. They brought my raspberry dressing but I didn't use it. And I enjoyed my meal. Also another up side to ordering that way-my bill was $7.89. Cheaper than any "dinner" on the menu. Though it was a good evening out-I was a little nervous about this experience-but...there will be many more. :)

I appreciate these experiences. Though I've been eating out for years, when you have a new "outlook" on your life and what your trying to accomplish it really makes me step back and re look at what eating out is all about.

Today seems to be a good day so far, there is a lot to do and a lot on my mind. But I am feeling good and that's awesome!

I did my measurements last night and I've lost 6 inches. WOO HOO

Weight loss: -1 pound = 14 pounds total and 6 inches :)

What to say?

This morning I'm feeling a little sluggish. I'm not sure if it's because I have a lot on my mind regarding this day or that I didn't sleep as soundly as I thought I would last night. Some reason I was worried I wouldn't wake up in time to get all I needed to get done this morning before work...needless to say, I had a lot of things I wanted to write about, but I can't think of a single one.

I know I'll have more to write on later, tonight I will have my first experience eating out...SHOULD BE INTERESTING :) I'll let you know how it goes.

Weight: -1 pound :) = 13 pounds total. :)

**I still need to measure my inches. I plan on doing that tonight as well-I'll report that tomorrow.

The best thing I ever ate...

So I've come to realize that the station I love to watch-The Food Network, well I can't anymore. I found myself watching a show called "the best thing I ever ate" and they talked about cupcakes...all I wanted to do was jump in my car and go to the cupcake store and purchase one of each. OK, that's over the top, but that's how I felt. I'm glad that I am starting to understand these thoughts and feelings that I have when it comes to food. I use to not care and would just eat whatever I wanted. Doing things in mot-oration is OK, but going over board is just out of control.

This morning during church, Pastor Mike was talking about being a generous giver. Are we generous when we give, do we have a cheerful heart when we do? He used the illustration that when you go into the store and you walk down the chip isle-you see the big family size bag of chips, you touch it, decided to purchase it and take it home. Of course it's the most expensive bag of chips you can have....but when you open it you feel ripped off because you just purchased the most expensive bag of air. There are many thoughts that you can take away from this...but for me I felt it was a great reminder of (for me) the let down food had in my life. I wanted it to "fill" the voids of things...once I'd eat it, all I had again was the same void and a more calories I never needed to begin with. This cycle has stopped and it feels great.

I'm excited that this has been the first week that I haven't had heart burn while sleeping and I have more energy during the day. I'm excited to see what each new week brings.

Weight- 0 (no pounds gained, no pounds lost) 12 pounds total.