Never good enough....

I'd like to think that at one point or another we have all felt this way, we are not good enough...

We hear someone explain a "perfect" someone or what they want in their lives, and you think to yourself what's wrong with me because I am those things, but not those things to that person. Never good enough.....

I've let myself feel that way to much in my life, that I've never been good enough for someone or something....

No one is perfect, and we will all look different when we get older, looks are not everything. Our world is to hung up on trying to achieve perfection, it's not real, it's not obtainable....stop wasting your time....

I know that I really am better then what they want or what that thing could be....I just let life and the world's ideas stop me from actually believing it........

It's tiring actually because I spend more time feeling sorry for myself because someone doesn't like me for me.....I'm done feeling sorry for myself because I believe I am something, someone pretty great. I have a lot to offer and even though people might not realize that, it's OK because I know that this isn't what life is all about. There is a bigger cause, there is more to life then this....I am good enough, I am loved and I am pretty great.....

Think....what?!

Think....that seems to be what I do all the time, well at least lately.....

I just can't turn it off, I wish that some how there would be a switch to shut your mind off for just a moment. But that doesn't happen with me. Even as much as I try to stop myself it doesn't work. Many people who know me know that I think a lot....really a lot! And though it might not always work in the best of ways, I am glad that I am who I am because I feel like I don't just walk into anything 1/2 way...I walk in with 100% commitment and ready to take on whatever it is I'm doing, saying or reacting to.

But here's the other part...I think a lot with my heart. I wonder how people will react, I wonder what they'll say, what the outcome will be and how much my heart will be effected. Though I don't believe it's wrong to think with your heart, I think it's hard to not make that the first thing that you go with. It's a daily struggle with me to not allow my heart to lead, but to let it follow....