It's so easy when it's.....

When everything is just black & white. So much easier when you just know something is going to be a certain way, or that the decision you've been stressing over finally becomes so clear to you. No more gray, no more on the fence...pick a side and be done with it.

That is how I am feeling....at the moment. This moment will change and I'll feel a different way soon. But for now I am in the gray, on the fence, in the middle of the road, a three way stop, looking east or west, up or down, side to side...in the middle. I was reading someone’s blog this morning and they where talking about life after...after the passing of her husband. I believe I had mentioned this story awhile ago. But I noticed something for the first time, when life is good, no issues, we're moving along just fine we write about the "everyday" things, what gets us through those days...but when our lives are struck with tragedies or uncertain situations we write about that moment and how we can't live life out of that "moment". Hope that makes sense...

I've noticed in my own life when I was doing so well with losing all this weight I talked about how great things where, everything seemed to be black and white, no questions...almost seemed "easy". But now that I've been struggling with that part and then other areas are difficult right now I'm focused to much on the gray and not enough on the black and white....

I'll get back to it, I know I will...it takes time and though this moment (how I'm currently feeling) will pass, I'll take the lesson and remember that when you put black and white together...you get gray, and that's ok. :)


Weight loss: 0

Total Weight loss: -127 pounds

Should I stay or should I go....

For most of us when you read the title to this blog the first thing that comes to mind is a song. Trust me I'm singing it right now as I'm typing...for others of us something else comes to mind...maybe a decision regarding a friendship, a relationship, a job, a financial decision, a matter of life and death...whatever it is we're asking ourselves daily "Should I stay or should I go?"

Sometimes when that question is asked we have a quick response and act on one or the other. Other times it takes awhile to come to a decision. Like this picture, if your in New York and the sign looks like this, you might want to hang tight and see how bad the traffic is before you step foot off the curb. Sometimes though we have to step off the curb to see what will happen.

Lately I've been asking this question a lot in my own life. Some of the answers are easy and others I've been struggling with for awhile. But the nice part about all this, though I might not know the answer right now; I have peace in the journey. It's been a long time since I've been able to say that, to really own it. I have peace, no matter what my decision at the end of the day might be. I definitely couldn't have said that 15 years ago let alone a year ago...but I can say it now and I can own it.

So...next time you have to make a decision on staying or leaving...sing the song first and then own your response!

Weight loss: 0

Total Weight loss: -127 pounds

Change...I like it!

I came across this picture last night while I was checking my email and it made me laugh. It's so ironic...we deal with change all the time but most of the time we don't have a sign telling us we're about to go through it. So wouldn't it be nice if you had a sign that just warned you that it was about to happen?

I use to dislike change...no matter what kind it was, the word alone would just make me cringe...I'd run the other direction and try to find ways to not let it happen. But I realized almost 2 years ago that change was ok, if you’re not changing your not growing...etc. So I made a decision, like it or not, change is going to be ok. And lately I am embracing change in a big way. I'm actually very excited about it...a little nervous but that's ok because at the end of the day this change will have a life "changing" effect on me. How great is that!

We should stop looking for the signs...and start living life embracing change, not being afraid of it...no matter how bad it might be or how wonderful it could be. It's going to happen...we can't change that....so like it! HA :)

Walk this journey with your head held high and not focused on the cracks below. If you are focused on the cracks let me tell you, you’re missing out on the amazing things of life!

Weight loss: -1 pound

Total Weight loss: -127 pounds

The eyes of a child...

We so often forget what it was like to be a child...to see the world through the eyes of a child. I was driving home the other day and typically (depending on what's going on) I like to switch up my drive home...they say that doing this will help later in life with Alzheimer’s...keeps your mind active. But anyways, that's not what we're talking about today...I was driving home and I went a totally different way that I hadn't driven in years actually. It took me down a road that I remember as a child driving and from the back seat of my parents car I would think to myself, as a child how big the houses on this road where. I remember being in awe of what I'd see....20 plus years later, not so much. They actually look smaller then what I remember....interesting how things change when you get older. (Such a loaded statement) :)

But this is the thing, if we where meant to always look at life that way, we would of stayed children, thinking in childish ways...but we're adults with major adult responsibilities and lately I haven't had much fun at it. BUT here's the other great thing about being an adult...ok I sat here for a good 15 minutes thinking about it....I like being an adult because I get to watch my daughter live, love and enjoy life. A part of me, a part of my heart...I get to be her mom and how awesome is that!

On my desk at work sits many pictures of my life, everything from my freshman year of college to my beautiful little girl. I have her school picture and I love looking at her little smile and realize that the sky is the limit for her; she's at the point that the world is her stage and I pray that she will embrace every moment with grace, elegance and dignity.

Children are a blessing and I am so thankful that GOD has given our family 5 beautiful little girls to raise, love and walk this journey of life together!


Weight loss: 0

Total Weight loss: -126 pounds....I've hit a rut :)

Which one are you....

If you Google a word and click the image link to the left you get all sorts of pictures, some of them are straight on and others you wonder how that picture was associated with that word....but anyways, I googled stressed...I wanted to see what would come up and this picture of this sign was the first one. I think it's pretty appropriate for what's going on in life. I'm stressed, for the super bowl last night I ate like it was my business....why, because it was the super bowl! But I'm starting to realize that I'm letting certain OLD habits come in my life again and that has to stop! NOW!

There is a lot happening around me, in me and through me...I don't really remember another time in my life that some many things where taking place at once. Usually in my life at least, when I am dealing with change its one change at a time not five, six, and seven......hundred different things. I'm not overwhelmed at the moment but I feel that if I continue like this I will be...and it's not a place I'd like to be at the moment. I'm trying to keep a level head about a lot of things, I'm trying to sit back and let things happen and then react, and instead of reacting and then sitting back to see what happens.

I can't explain it all, nor do I really want to detail all of it out for right now. But I do know this, right now, this moment that I'm going through is a test of my will power for one...I am no longer an emotional eater so it's time that I stop acting like one!

Make this a good day, chose the path that makes you the happiest and run with it!

Weight loss: 0

Total Weight loss: -126 pounds