The road of life...

This picture really describes my life lately. Even the blue skies and big puffy clouds...The lane is ending in a certain part of my life and I have to make a decision. I've been blogging about this a lot lately and I am really hoping that sooner then later I'll have a chance to share with you all that's been going on.

But for now my journey on the road of life has a lot of uncertainty and I'm watching my speed. Over the last 4-5 months I've been checking my rear view mirrors to make sure that I'm not repeating anything from my past but I failed to control the new distractions coming my way. The good part about this road is that it's straight, the goal is in sight and I'm praying and hoping that I'll be taking a new exit really soon...a new path, maybe the back roads this time. Nothing wrong with getting off the main road and enjoying the ride. And I'm ready; I need to enjoy the ride.

I look forward to the blog that I can share all that's been going on and stop keeping you in the dark...I want to shed some light on all this!

Yesterday was a new day, a re charge of my weight loss journey. I'm happy to say that I stuck to my plan and I didn't give into old temptations, though they where very present and real in my life. We shall see what today brings...open to new temptations and challenges but I will not run away..I'll face them head on and come out victories...I promise!

Weight loss: -1 pound

Total Weight loss: -100 pounds

It's time to get real....

You might want to get a cup of coffee though no sugar or creamer...actually makes it hot tea with no sugar. Either way this might be a long blog.....

I made commitment not only to myself but to those who would follow my progress in this journey to lose weight.... I made a promise that I'd be real and honest with where I was headed, what I was doing and what I was going through. So here it is...I spent the whole winter (4 months exactly) not following the plan, not doing the good habits that I needed to continue, staying focused on the goal at hand, not listening to my "new" me and I have an epic FAIL. Yes, I said fail...I have let myself once again slip back into the "old ways" and feel that it was ok to do that...that some how the weight would just keep coming off if I went back to how I use to live....FAIL, I have failed myself and my commitment to a healthier me....

I stepped onto the scales today to realize that I am on a back slide into a number that I no longer want to be in! I made myself a promise that I'd never see that number again, but it seems that my promises to myself didn't really mean as much to me as it should of. It's happening because I become lazy and complacent with what I was doing in my life. I'm allowing the frustrations of my career, relationships, personal life and financials be my excuse as to why I can't focus on my weight loss...POOR excuse I must say..it's called life and I MUST deal! I made excuses as to why I'd have that slice of pizza x 3 and/or having that piece of chocolate x 8....because well I gave into the old habits that I once despised.

SO today is a new day and though I now have to make up some serious and major changes, I know that I will, I WILL! No longer can, want to....I WILL.

This pattern, these choices are unacceptable to me. I worked so hard in the beginning to keep this lifestyle and I let myself become lazy and complacent. This isn't a rip me a part blog..so please don't view it that way, I am just being honest and real with myself and to those who care so much about me and this journey. That was my promise to me and to you.

So today...this beautiful day that I've been given is a new beginning, a new start to what I've already committed too. Back to the basics of what I must do, what I did that was right. Once and for all I will kick this habit of weight for good. I knew it would be hard, but old habits, old thoughts die hard...they don't want to let go of me and now I will work extra hard to get this taken care of. I can no longer face my day to day with a so so attitude...I MUST embrace it, I WILL take hold of it and let NOTHING come in between my goal of being healthier and getting this weight GONE!

TO my readers...thank you for your encouragement, support and walking along side me during all this. I am committed to seeing this through once again...don't give up on me...this will make me stronger then before. This 4 month "don't care" mentality that I had is no longer acceptable in my life. Keep me accountable...Keep my feet to the fire and let's see the end results!

Weight loss: New Beginning

Total Weight loss: Starting New.....GO TEAM!

Let's run this race ONCE and for ALL

Get over the idea that life sucks only for you....

I was sent an email yesterday about "What to do when you take one to the kisser, knocking you on your rump..." I have to say clever statement or tag line...Yesterday had moments over overwhelming unknown draped in layers of uncertainty. Unfortunately for you the reader I can't get into the details, but know that I learned another valuable lesson from those moments...I need to get over the idea that life sucks only for me...IT'S not about me, never has been, never will be...move on!

Currently in my life my professional, personal, emotional, physical life are playing tug of war. I'm holding onto this rope so tightly that the pain of the rope burns has gone to the numbing stage. I remember these games growing up...never failed someone would be pulled so hard they'd fall on their face and blood would be involved. Or the opposite would happen, they'd win and this overwhelming joy of victory would diminish the fact you where covered in dirt from head to toe. But the victory is better then what you look like. Ah those where the days....

So it's OK to get knocked down; it's actually good for us. It begins the growth process of whatever your going through. And it's OK to heal from all this..but I must reduce the time that it keeps me down...that's the key.

Right now this moment I am covered from head to toe and focusing on the most important that "this too shall pass." This too shall pass....and the best part of the statement it will! So I have a choice...to overcome or not to overcome...it's entirely up to me.

I'm going to hold on and finish these game victories!

Weight loss: 0

Total Weight loss: -125 pounds

Catching Up...

Do you know this guy...No...? Well you should! He's the coolest guy I know...no offense to any of my guy friends...but this guy rocks and I'm so thankful for my friendship with him...not only are we friends but we're family! :) Disclaimer about picture...Justin we need a new one! This picture was taken when I went to visit him in Colorado...October 2009 I believe...we've changed in a good way since then. But that's not what I'm about to write about...

It takes one phone call; it takes one email or text message to change things. To put things into perspective. To help you remember that it's not all that bad. I am so blessed to have two cousins in my life. My mom's parents had/have 5 grandchildren...my two older brothers, I and my two younger cousins. I'm in the middle regarding age. Each of us is very different in our own way but we do have similar traits in life as well. Over the years Justin who is the youngest...we've formed a close friendship. I am forever thankful for this. I'm thankful as we've gotten older that our friendship has grown and we have a respect for each other, not only as cousins but as friends.

Last night I had the opportunity to catch up with him. I look forward to these phone calls...even though sometimes we play a wicked game of phone tag. But our conversations can be everything from the small things such as the day to day....even the deep parts of life, our careers, families, relationships. I have grown to appreciate Justin's outlook on life and know that at the end of the conversation we'll be praying for each other till we talk again.

I was honored to be able to be apart of his wedding this past summer...to celebrate the exciting times in life...but also being able to support each other through the dark times. I'm proud of who he is, how he represents himself and how he lives his life. I'm thankful to not only call him my cousin, but my dear friend.

I'm thankful to have the family that I do. Though we might not always get along...show me a family that does! But I am thankful for the friendships that are formed in our family....I am blessed


Weight loss: 0

Total Weight loss: -125 pounds

My dear friends

The sister of my heart lives in Indiana. We met our freshman year of college and had a bond that would travel the test of time. Though we may not talk all the time, when we do, we pick up right where we left off. I know that no matter what happens in life she's going to be there...

A kindred spirit resides in Ohio. A sudden heart connection a few years ago, a seed of friendship that instantly took root. A girl who knows, just simply knows.

A lifetime friend takes root in Cleveland. Friends since we were sixteen, she has known me as a teenager but we put a wedge in our friendship for a few years, but thankful for circumstances that brought us back together as adults, mothers, career woman and friends.

She is a rare gift... one who will fly across the country or stay on the phone all night if that's what I needed, she would be there in an instant to hug me, pray with me, laugh with me, cry with me and be silent with me. She would defend me, fight for me or with me and walk beside me through the darkest of times and through the greatest of times.

You see these ladies have been so influential in my life and I am truly blessed to call them my friends. I am thankful for their lives, their testimony, their passion and their devotions to their families...these are my dear friends.

Love them to pieces! All the friends in my life are dear and I am so thankful for their place in my life. Take no one for granted because one day they won't be here.....

Weight loss: 0

Total Weight loss: -125 pounds

Super Size....EVERYTHING

I gave in and watched the documentary Super Size Me....and all I can say at the moment is that I'll never look at fast food the same, ever again. If you haven't seen this movie and you can stomach it...I recommend it. We're in serious trouble in our world because of how we eat. The statics and facts are so alarming that I'm still trying to understand them all.

My body deserves so much better then what I've been doing to it! Everyone's body, health and mind deserve better then what we are all doing to ourselves. The scary part is since this movie came out in 2002 that we've gotten worse....nothing has changed. We live in a world of right now, bigger the better, the faster the better, the must have mentality! It can't happen; this can't be what we teach our children.

Watch it...make your own opinion but if you don't walk away from it changed then I suggest re looking at what you are doing in your own life....

No more super size anything for me!

Weight loss: 0

Total Weight loss: -125 pounds