My feet hurt...

Boy my feet have hurt for the last few days. I thought to myself that maybe it's the type of shoes I wear...close to this picture, but then I also started to think the other reason...maybe it's all the "weight" I've been carring around for so many years. Not just the physical weight but the emotional and mental weight too. Not sure if I shared this earlier in the week, but I came face to face with a real problem I have had in my life this week. I don't deal with "life" when it happens. I've been one to put the "face of ok" on and move past whatever has happened, but pushing those emotions, feelings way down inside in hopes that I wouldn't see them again. But that has changed because realizing that this is who I've been has answered a lot more questions on the reason I was so over weight for so many years. I ate to hide how I felt, what I was dealing with. Thinking the whole time that I was "fixing" the problem but all reality I was making it worse...a lot worse.

So the weight that I've been carring around for 12 years now has started to show it self in more ways then one. Losing 127 pounds does a lot to your body, it has to adjust, my feet are not carring an "extra" person anymore and they don't know what to do with themselves....but my feet have also carried the burden of my struggles. You hear people say that you must take care of your feet or you'll have major problems in your future....it's so true! So lesson learned, take care of your feet...you need them to take you all the places you will/want to go. :)

*Just thought this picture was funny....maybe I'll get these for Christmas...NOT! :)


Weight loss: 0

Total Weight Loss: -127 pounds

Decisions, Decisions

No matter what decisions we make, good or bad there is always going to be some sort of consequence with it...Right! Well the decision I made to not really "follow" my plan for the month of December is catching up with me. My body is screaming at my right now as if to say, WHAT HAVE YOU BEEN DOING?!?! It's not that I did the wrong things, but I didn't incorporate enough of the right things...my stomach, my body in general is on strike from what I've been doing...makes for some fun times....


So it's back to the right decision I made and get myself back to what I need to be doing!


Weight loss: 0

Total Weight loss: -127 pounds

And so it goes...

I'm a thinker...sometimes I think to much, sometimes I don't think enough. Sometimes it gets me in trouble and sometimes it makes things way better....I just wish I wasn't over analyzing things all the time. I've shared that I'm reading the book Eat, Pray, Love and maybe it's timing, maybe it's because I'm looking for the "next thing" in my life to be busy with, but I'm finding that this book brings a lot of ah ha moments to me. Finding something in life that you've wanted to do and do it...what holds us back....well for me, I'm held back by fear most of the time, what would people think, why would anyone want to do that? The questions, the over thinking of things takes hold most of the time in those situations and I never do it. I never take hold of those "feelings and thoughts". But that's all changing, I'm working through, battling some of the inner thoughts and overcoming it so I can do what I've always wanted to do....what might that be...not sure yet but when I know, I'll for sure share it! :)

Make this a positive day with positive thoughts!

Weight loss: -1 pound

Total Weight loss: -128 pounds

A little before and after...

At the request of a good friend, she suggested that I show some before and after pictures. The first picture that you see was taken in October of 2009...actually a good indicator of when I was at my heaviest. I had gone to Denver to visit my cousin and his now wife and honestly when I looked at these picture I remember thinking that I looked "OK"...but a year later looking at these, my heart breaks because I was in such denial! But now....this is the new me and I love it!

200

This is my 200th blog post....that's pretty crazy to think....but then I realize that I've been doing this weight loss journey for almost 10 months! I've also realized too (thanks to my mom) but with all this weight loss sure has messed with my emotions in a big way. I always thought I was level headed (those that know me feel free to comment if that's not the case..HA) but I noticed that lately I've had to get my emotions in check with EVERYTHING I've been doing in my life. GREATTT!!!

For the last 10 months I've been focused on losing this weight, getting rid of the old me and starting a new beginning with a new and improved me. Well I have to say that I'm pretty pleased with the "new" look, the new me, but I am disappointed in the other parts of me...I haven't spent enough time taking care of that part of my life. My brother and sister in law gave me the book Eat, Pray, Love for Christmas. I've seen the movie and loved it. I was actually very inspired by the movie, but last night I started to really take the time to read the book and I can't put it down! First I wish I was a writer like she is, able to express every thought and every experience in such a way that the picture in your mind is as if your living that very moment with her. Amazing! Second, I wish that I had the courage to share those feelings with others...but reading this book has a breath of fresh air for me, I am excited to finish it!

We're 4 days into the new year and I have to say that this year so far...4 days....not that exciting....not to bad, but not great....Not really sure what I was expecting though, fire works? A big parade? Not sure...but thankful for new beginnings and changes!

Make this a great day!

Weight loss: 0

Total Weight loss: -127 pounds

So have you kept the course?

So it's the 3rd day of this new year, have you kept your promise, your resolutions? The nice thing with this year is that I don't have any resolutions that I won't keep...let me explain. I didn't make any! The Weight loss resolution that all of us make at one time or another, I don't need to this year because I'm already in it. I made that decision in April. The other resolutions to do better, give more etc...those I work on all year around. I'm done waiting till January 1st to make changes, when there is a change that needs made it's decided then. A lot of good things I hope and pray will come our way this year. I hope that this year will bring a new awareness to who we are and what our purpose is here in life.

Back to the basics for me....eating right and sticking to the plan!

Weight loss: 0

Total Weight loss: -127 pounds