Joined together

This weekend two people will get married....at this point you might be saying to yourself, "Amanda that was last weekend." Right-this wedding, the royal wedding was last weekend but I am talking about my cousin and her future husband are getting married this weekend.

Weddings! Who doesn't love a good wedding, people joining their lives together, making a commitment between each other that should never be broke. This is the ultimate sign of trust that two people will ever enter into. So much will be tested, so much will be tried and so much will be uncertain but when two people truly love each other, and their relationship with Christ is strong then marriage should be....

Ah I left you hanging didn't I? See that last sentence is something you'd have to fill in for yourself. I've been there...but it wasn't in the cards of life for it to be true, really. The trust I once had in that situation is broken and for almost 6 years I have had to re learn what trust is all about. A wedding is a great day to dress up and celebrate but the real parts starts the moment after the last guest leaves and you look at your partner and say "Now what?!” Marriage is hard on the best of days...

Lately my trust, my lessons of life are being tested...yes I'm ok with it. I am all dressed up and ready to celebrate this new journey but when all the hoopla is finished you better believe I will be saying "now what?!" And I cling to my relationship with Christ.

*Haven't worked out this week-that's a palm to the forehead...fail. Back at it on Monday. Enjoy your weekend-I'll be celebrating love!

Weight loss: -1 pound

Total Weight loss: -113 pounds

Landing....but not feet first

You've heard the saying, it will be ok because you'll land feet first...well normally that would be the case in most situations right now in my life. I'll land feet first and maybe even take off running. But right now I am ok with also landing on my "back side".

A lot is happening right now. Many unknowns, many "worried" situations but one thing I know for sure I will land, just not really sure how. I have trust, I have strength and I have faith. Those three things will help to cushion the fall that I am going through right now. Even perfect days can end in rain...and that's ok. I am learning through this whole process, I am being tested, I am being molded....and I am ok with it all.

Side note, gas prices sure make people re think what they would normally do...like go to the gym. Now I am only going to the gym if I have to be in that area for something else. It's frustrating yes because I really like going to the gym-clears my mind. But this gas price thing is becoming the new norm and we must adjust.

Weight loss: 0

Total weight loss: -112 pounds

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This picture sums up how I'm feeling. All the things that I have learned, all the life lessons that I have been through have brought me to this moment. Good and bad! I almost feel like I'm on a train track facing another train coming full speed ahead right for me. It's like a battle of who will jump first. I am nervous, I have a lot of unknowns, but I also have peace, I have trust in Christ, I have strength. I can honestly say that I have no idea where my next "whatever" is going to come from. But I know that if it wasn't for all that I've been through I wouldn't be able to get through this.

I have all faith, all love, all joy, all strength, all trust that my heavenly father will never leave me or forsake me. No matter what HE won't let me fail.

Weight loss: -1 pound

Total Weight loss: -112 pounds