I love putting clothes on and seeing that they are to big or no longer lay right on me because I'm no longer that size. I enjoy seeing less of myself. I think it's very rewarding to see this progress...but I some times still see myself as I once was. The old me, the unhealthy me...even through I have now lost 83 pounds....that's a child in middle school. I still see myself as the unhealthy, unhappy, overweight person I once was. I know, as with everything in life it all takes time. I just never realized that I had buried so much pain in my life and now I'm dealing with it. The mental part is the hardest. The self talk track is difficult because it has to be broken. It's like a record, it keeps spinning over and over again till I take hold and break it. I'm not the same person outwardly as I once was, and my mind needs to realize that.
Seeing new numbers is always really positive and exciting...I can't wait for the 100 mark. It's so much closer now then ever...(duh). But there has never been any other time in my life that I have lost this much weight or been so close to a goal.
Weight loss: -3 pounds
Total Weight loss: -83 pounds.
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