Here begins all the questions...

A few days ago I was reading someone's blog and they where talking about how GOD knew long before our lives even began that we'd go through the trails, the unknowns, the heart ache, the pain, the tears...So I began to think about my own life.....and I'm about to get even more personal.

I thought about this statement over and over in my head. I thought, "So GOD knew that when I was a little girl dreaming of my "future" husband I'd some day meet my ex husband, it wouldn't work out and we'd divorce." Then after that thought the word WHY came to mind. You might be saying to yourself, of course Amanda He knows it all and let's us walk through life and go through these bumps to trust Him..yes I agree with that. But an all loving GOD would let my heart break more then once in my life, struggle with image issues, struggle with being accepted, struggle with...whatever it may be...but He allowed/allows those things because HE....loves me.

What a concept right. Go through pain, hurt, trials, death of a loved one and/or friend, uncertain....but love me unconditionally. Love me more than any person on this earth. Allow me to learn about me and what I am all about. Before any tear touched my face, it passed through His hands. Unconditional love. Unfailing love, love that goes beyond my comprehension. Amazing love.

I'm learning new lessons daily with this journey of weight, self image and discovery...I am thankful for His love...


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Total Weight loss: -106 pounds