Simple

I like simple, don't you? I like when things just seem to "fit" into place. No questions asked, it's just simple. Well lately my life has been anything OTHER then simple. It's been a mixed up bag of emotions, up and down unknowns and simple is out of the question. The other day I found myself face to face with conflict that really when you look back never needed to happen. Normally I'm the type that will fire back on emotion and will not realize the consequences of those replies till it's too late. But for the first time in a very long time I stopped.....and I waited. I waited 5 whole days before I gave my response. I totally understand that it's not always a good thing to wait that long, but I had too. I will say I did write what I wanted to say as soon as I received the conflict....but I saved it, I held onto it and over the 5 days that I waited I re read it, I edited it, I deleted parts of it and re wrote other parts....but I waited. And I had peace with it. I realized something about this, it was simple, it was clear and it was clean. What I mean by all that is that it was direct in what I wanted to say, it was clear in what I wrote, nothing was left to question and it was clean-I left out all and any emotion that could be associated with it. It felt great! It felt right, it was so needed too. I realized that I like simple, but it doesn't come around very often-so when it does I need to stop, enjoy that moment no matter what it is. And wait. I have a hard time waiting....at least lately. I am done with letting people control my emotions. If they want to be jerks, let them be jerks, but not in my life. If they want to pick a fight, let them pick a fight, but not in my life. If they want to be negative, let them be negative, but not in my life....see a pattern here! I am done being the door mate for peoples negative, jealous, selfish, controlling ways. I like simple, I want simple and that means cutting out individuals who don't bring simple to my life. That might be a loaded and harsh statement but it's true. All of us can get past the negatives of life, but many chose to stay in them, they chose to get wrapped up in it. I find it sad and depressing and chose-I chose to not live my life that way. Regarding the emotional side of life. I usually respond 80% on emotion and the other 20% on life. But I also realize too that if you get stuck in the emotional side all the time that life isn't fun, it's just stressful. I am not saying that you shouldn't act on emotion, but only when it's right. And I believe you know when it's right. I'm learning a lot about my life, the changing of it. I'm in the 7 year change and I'm excited about it. There are new things that I am not use to, but I'm accepting. There are things that I use to do that I put on the shelf for a long time, but now I'm taking them off and utilizing them. It feels great, this change-I just need simple......it's so much better that way.