No hurry....

Well it's been awhile since I've writen in my blog. A little to long. I realize that when I was journaling daily that I felt better, now that I wait months between post I feel scrambled. But hopefully I can get back into the swing of things. So what's new.....

A lot of things are new, exciting, scary and just plain unknown. I've started my own business 2 months ago with my friend Matt. Won't lie, it's been interesting and overwhelming at the same time. I feel like I should know what I'm doing and that this should just be second nature but it's not. It's been ok, we've been some what busy but I want to be so busy that I can't see straight. I know that it will take 2 solid years to at least get it going. I know that it won't just happen over night, but I want it to happen. This has really also been a test of my prayer life. I feel like I'm on an island by myself and really the only thing I can do is pray. So pray I am....

I've been reminded a lot lately that it's not telling GOD what you think he wants to hear or what you want done, it's listening and thanking him for what he has already done and what he will be doing. It's a hard concept to grasp sometimes because all I want to do is just tell him what I want in life-and then I think it's going to be ok. But lately my prayers have been struggles and unknown feelings. I know that he already knows what's going on, he just wants me to tell him.

The seasons are changing and so are the seasons of my life. It's hard to believe that 7 years has come and gone. 7 years ago I would of had no idea what I would be doing today, owner of my own business. But if all that wouldn't of happened I'd never of had the opportunities and chances to meet the people I have in my life. God knew what he was doing-though I might not of understood at the time, he did. That's hard to understand sometimes as well-I'd just like to be clued in on what's going on before it happens. I'm not much for surprises. They make me nervous....but that's not how God works. So I adapt...

All this being said, it's good to be back. I hope that I can at least start getting my thoughts out more often-more for me, and if you enjoy it, then thank you! :)