The roller coaster of life

Yesterday was 6 weeks till the end of year. I have to say even though there have been parts of this year that have been great, I will be glad to put this one behind me and see what 2011 brings. It's been a year of losing friendships, disappointments and frustration. But there have been good things from this year, losing weight, watching Makayla become a great little girl and challenges for the better. I hope that 2011 will bring good things to many and that it can be a year of positives....here's to hope. :)

Weight loss: 0

Total Weight loss: -125 pounds.

I don't know this person anymore

Last week a friend of mine tagged me in a photo on Facebook that was taken in March of this year. I have to say two things went through my mind when I saw this picture...ok actually 3, the first was WHO IS THIS?, the second was WOW I don't even know her anymore! and the third was embarrassment and shame....how could I of ever let myself get this way? Why did I not realize it? Why did it take me this long to get a grip on my life? Why, Why, Why...but I realized it wasn't why anymore...I have done something about it, I have gotten a grip on my life...for good.

I left the picture up because for me it's a reminder of who I never want to see again. I don't want that person in my life anymore, she stayed to long. But it was also a big encouragement that I have come so far and that I am making a difference in my life for good. Finally! I am only 32 pounds away from my goal. Seems easy in some ways and in others it seems like it's just the same feeling when I started...will I ever get there. 32 is to get my to 'my' goal weight but that doesn't mean I will stop losing weight. 32 will put me in the area that I need to be in. At that point then maintenance and maintaining will begin. Then begins the next step of my journey...the part I'm most excited about, but nervous too. I'm so ready to be where I need to be and see the new me...I can't stand it. :)

Every wrong turn I've made I am correcting in some way...not perfect but I am putting the past in the past and moving forward. So exciting!

Weight loss: 0

Total weight loss: -125 pounds.

Roller Coasters

There are certain times in life that I wish I would of been more prepared...this morning would of been one of them. I attended a Chamber breakfast and hear a great presenation by a man that is well known in the area. He actually was someone that hired me for an internship my freshman year of college, over the summer. One of the best jobs I ever had. He gave a presenation this morning about the roller coaster of life. All of us will end up at the same place when all is said and done, it's just what we did along the way to get there. Some people like the merry go round...personally it makes me sick. I perfer the roller coaster...but I wish I would of or could of taped the presenation because it would be one that I'd listen to for years to come. Moral of this day...always be prepared, no matter what.

Have a great Friday, enjoy every moment!

Weight loss: 0

Total Weight loss: -125 pounds.

Life & Death

The last 24 hours have been filled with bad news. It's been pretty frustrating, sad and my heart hurts for those who have lost loved ones. I found myself going to bed early last night because my body physically couldn't sit "function" anymore. I can't remember the last time I slept so hard last night and woke up feeling like I had lived a crazy dream, but brought back to reality quickly. We can't take life to seriously but we need to enjoy and love every moment. Embrace all moments in our lives because when they are over, they are over. (Insightful ha!)

I have been looking at the pictures that Candace took for Makayla and I, and my heart is full. I am so thankful for them and will cherish them. Here is her website, check her out! http://candacelynnphotography.blogspot.com/2010/11/amazing-journey.html

Weight loss: 0

Total Weight loss: -125 pounds.

2 more pounds..

I am only 2 more pounds from entering a new weight number. I couldn't believe it when I stepped on the scale this morning, that I had lost 6 pounds and I am now entering the final stages of this weight journey. Somedays it seems so far away and others...it's like it will happen tomorrow. But I will continue the course and do what I need to do to reach the final goal. I just can't wait to have a party to celebrate! We'll start praying that there won't be any blizzards and everyone's schedule is free. HA!

Much love!

Weight loss: -6 pounds...this might be the most at one time!

Total Weight loss: -125 pounds!

Here I am

Well here I am! This was taken when I had lost 100 pounds, actually I believe I was at 108 pounds by then. Sorry for the long awaited pictures. But I hope you enjoy them as much as I do. Candace did a fantastic job and I will charish them!


Weight loss: 0

Total Weight loss: -119 pounds

One day, someday soon

I believe soon I will be meeting my new weight. I am excited because I am feeling good and I haven't looked like this in years. My aunt was here this past weekend and we had a great time laughing...but it was also cool for her to see the new me. I can't wait to get to my final goal and celebrate big!

Daily we're met with challenges. Yesterday was a tough day, I had a lot of emotions running around and I missed my grandparents a lot. Not sure what it was yesterday, but it was just tough. I felt like eat my way through a bag of M&M's but realized that wouldn't of solved anything, just the opposite. I will be honest, I still struggle when it comes to my emotions and food. The "old" me would of just cling to food and fill up on foods that I didn't need nor want to hide, bury or stuff my emotions deep so I wouldn't have to deal with them. Now that I have chosen to not deal with them that way, I actually have to face and deal...it's hard, but I'm doing it, without food.

"If you don't think every day is a good day, just try missing one."

Weight loss: -1 pound

Total weight loss: -119 pounds.