It's time to get real....

You might want to get a cup of coffee though no sugar or creamer...actually makes it hot tea with no sugar. Either way this might be a long blog.....

I made commitment not only to myself but to those who would follow my progress in this journey to lose weight.... I made a promise that I'd be real and honest with where I was headed, what I was doing and what I was going through. So here it is...I spent the whole winter (4 months exactly) not following the plan, not doing the good habits that I needed to continue, staying focused on the goal at hand, not listening to my "new" me and I have an epic FAIL. Yes, I said fail...I have let myself once again slip back into the "old ways" and feel that it was ok to do that...that some how the weight would just keep coming off if I went back to how I use to live....FAIL, I have failed myself and my commitment to a healthier me....

I stepped onto the scales today to realize that I am on a back slide into a number that I no longer want to be in! I made myself a promise that I'd never see that number again, but it seems that my promises to myself didn't really mean as much to me as it should of. It's happening because I become lazy and complacent with what I was doing in my life. I'm allowing the frustrations of my career, relationships, personal life and financials be my excuse as to why I can't focus on my weight loss...POOR excuse I must say..it's called life and I MUST deal! I made excuses as to why I'd have that slice of pizza x 3 and/or having that piece of chocolate x 8....because well I gave into the old habits that I once despised.

SO today is a new day and though I now have to make up some serious and major changes, I know that I will, I WILL! No longer can, want to....I WILL.

This pattern, these choices are unacceptable to me. I worked so hard in the beginning to keep this lifestyle and I let myself become lazy and complacent. This isn't a rip me a part blog..so please don't view it that way, I am just being honest and real with myself and to those who care so much about me and this journey. That was my promise to me and to you.

So today...this beautiful day that I've been given is a new beginning, a new start to what I've already committed too. Back to the basics of what I must do, what I did that was right. Once and for all I will kick this habit of weight for good. I knew it would be hard, but old habits, old thoughts die hard...they don't want to let go of me and now I will work extra hard to get this taken care of. I can no longer face my day to day with a so so attitude...I MUST embrace it, I WILL take hold of it and let NOTHING come in between my goal of being healthier and getting this weight GONE!

TO my readers...thank you for your encouragement, support and walking along side me during all this. I am committed to seeing this through once again...don't give up on me...this will make me stronger then before. This 4 month "don't care" mentality that I had is no longer acceptable in my life. Keep me accountable...Keep my feet to the fire and let's see the end results!

Weight loss: New Beginning

Total Weight loss: Starting New.....GO TEAM!

Let's run this race ONCE and for ALL