Changing the habit

I'm wrestling right now with an old habit. It was a habit that I thought I had gotten rid of or moved past it. But it's the habit that isn't visible to anyone else, it's the habit of "talking down" to myself. The self defeating talk. Why did it come back, why didn't it go away for good when I started all this. I thought I had worked really hard to get rid of it, but it's been for a few days. I caught myself looking at myself in the mirror today saying to myself why haven't I reached my goal, I won't get there...all negative talk. But then I stopped myself and thought this is crazy, look where I've come, where I'm headed. That's to be remembered and embraced. I think a lot of times this time of year and just life in general makes us think those things....I don't need the habit back! Then I stepped on the scales and lost another pound...that's when I tell the negative part to go bye bye!

Weight loss: -1 pound

Total Weight loss: -128 pounds.

One step at a time

This time of year is a great reminder that when we're dealing with snow, clod and ice that we have to watch our steps, walk slowly and carefully. Just like in life, we take things slowly, carefully and walk with ease. Sometimes though doing all that doesn't stop us from falling down. Sometimes it just happens even thought we're doing everything right. It just happens, we fall down, we slip but we get up. Maybe a little bruised, maybe a little hurt, but we always get back up. The point is that we might do everything we can to take it easy, to be careful but sometimes we lose our footing.

I feel like that today, I feel like I've been "careful and walking slowly" though all this over the last 9 months but in the last few weeks I have fallen, slipped on the ice but I've gotten back up. I continue to move forward, to stay focused and no matter how much snow, ice or whatever falls I will recover.

Enjoy this weather...no matter where you are!

Weight loss: 0

Total Weight loss: -127 pounds.

Why yes, yes I will

Make this a great day! Not a lot on my mind this morning or really going on. This week, my birthday week has been excellent! So thankful that this year was WAY better then last year. Blessed by so many people and so many wonderful things this past week. I have so much to be thankful for, and I am!

My 93 year old Grandma sent me a birthday card and it was one of the best, I'd like to share it with you:

How to Live Well: Birthday advice for a wonderful granddaughter.

May you keep getting to know yourself better-and keep loving what you discover.
May you never stop learning, growing, dreaming.
May you travel to places you've always wanted to go-and find yourself right at home wherever you are.
May you take up something new-or something old that you put aside once upon a time.
May you take good care of yourself in every possible way- and let those who love you take care of you now and then, too.
May you remember all the happiness you've known and believe with all your heart that some of your best joys are yet to come.
May you live each day like you've only begun.
But most of all, may you never forget how deeply you are loved.

Priceless and will cherish this card!

Weight loss: 0 pounds

Total Weight loss: -127 pounds.

Where did the time go...

The day has gotten away from me for the moment...but the snow is falling and SO is my weight! Woo Hoo, glad to get up this morning and be down 2 more pounds. For the last 3 weeks I feel like I've been back and forth on things and finally it seems like I was able to break that cycle! Now I'm down 127 pounds and my final goal is so much closer then it's ever been in my life. Being 32 so far has been good to me! I hope it continues.

Make the rest of the day even better!

Weight loss: -2 pounds

Total Weight loss: -127 pounds.

Good things to come...

So 32…here I am, I’ll be interested to see what this year brings. I hope that it’s way better then last year and that I can look back when I’m 33 and say this was a great year. I hope that this year I continue to learn more about myself and really feel like I am going places. I want to make a difference, I want to have the chance to be able to give back in a way that I have never had the chance to do so. I continue to pray that I will stay focused with my weight loss and I continue to pray that my life, my family, my friends lives will be strengthened and blessed this year. I hope that I continue to do right in all that I do. This is a year that I want positive more then the negatives to be apart of our lives.

It was great to celebrate with one less person this year! I won't be inviting that person back...ever! Thankful for this change, for how I feel and where I'm headed.

I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.


Weight loss: 0

Total Weight loss: -125 pounds

32 years ago today...

A little girl arrived in this world....that's me! 32 years, sometimes doesn't seem possible that I am this age...it has already been a day full of blessings. Everything from getting emails, texts and phone calls wishing me a happy birthday, my life is blessed. A year ago things where not as good as they are now, I was heading in a direction that wasn't where I needed to be and I'm so thankful that I changed those ways, I'm thankful that I have basically been given a second at making things right and making life better. We get one shot at this and we need to make the most of all of it.

32 years, there is a lot to reflect on and then figure out where to head from here. But I sit here today thankful, pleased and blessed. I have a wonderful family, an amazing little girl, great friends, health, a job and most importantly my faith in Christ. I will continue to move forward with all that He has given me and know that no matter what is brought into my life, we'll make it through. I'm really looking forward to getting to my goal weight and seeing the final result of hard work and determination. I only have 38 more pounds to go and then I can "close" this chapter in my life and go onto a new goal. :)

Have a blessed day and enjoy it! You know I will be.

Weight loss: -1 pound

Total Weight loss: -125 pounds

364 days

Well today is my last day being 31 and I'm excited to get a new number. This past year has been full of new numbers for me. Everything from my job, to my pant size...all these numbers have been changing. I'm glad to put 31 behind me and look forward to seeing what 32 has to hold.

I have to admit that I haven't been focused on my weight in the last week. Not sure if it was the holidays or what but I ate like it was my job and this morning I felt guilty. I noticed that I let some old habits back in over the last few days and that's not acceptable for me. So I'm going to re focus myself and get back to what I know is right.

Many things where reflected over the last few days and I have to just say that I am so thankful, so blessed with my life. Sometimes it's overwhelming or holds a lot of unknowns, but that's ok because it helps to make me stronger...makes me realize what blessings I have.

Join with me today to celebrate a new 365 days tomorrow~

Weight loss: -1 pound

Total Weight loss: -124 pounds