Sight....do you see it?

(2 blogs in one day...can it be?) Walking by faith and not by sight...daily. That's what I'm doing daily. BUT today I'm really starting to struggle with this. Much is going on and I'm battling the true test of the statement walk by faith and not by sight. So much so, I found myself sitting in the parking lot of the Dairy Queen today over lunch...not to worry I fought the "want" to get a blizzard. Though I imagined myself eating it. But I didn't have lunch, I sat in my car and made phone calls, listened to music and prayed.

I'm walking but I want to see everything. I believe, I have faith but I want to see what's going on. I don't enjoy surprises and I don't enjoy being unprepared. BUT for the first time in a VERY long time I'm unprepared and I am trusting 100% on my faith, my trust and my hope in Christ. My heart wants several things right now, in the worst way. My heart keeps saying one thing and my mind is telling me to be patient. My heart tells my head no, that my heart wants results....yesterday!

I hold strong to know that all this, all that my heart is beating for, wanting, hoping for and believing in...I believe that it will all work out, not in my time but in GOD'S time. I must need to learn this lesson; I haven't learned it well in my past. When I get into this place I start to cover the struggles and unknowns with food...so hide your chocolate and lock up your ice cream :) I promise, I'll stick to my good habits.

Make this a great day with a good outcome!

All the promises....

The great thing about today is that all HIS promises are true. Today's promises are made new each day. Here's the thing about promises...they are not always easy promises.

Promise: Each day will be difficult IF you take your eyes off the goal at hand.

Promise: losing weight is never easy but the rewards are powerful.

Promise: losing a loved one at a young age or any age is never understood, but rejoicing in their life they had here on earth is priceless.

Promise: love will hurt but when you care for that person the joy will out weigh the hurt.

Promise: today is a new day, embrace it and find the good out of it.

Promise: GOD will never give you more then you can't handle...promise.

Promises can be good and they can be bad...but it's how we react to those promises that will make us stronger and get us through these moments. Over the last week and a half there has been major tragedy in Japan, in our area we lost an amazing Judge that not only lived her young life for Christ but even after death her faith and testimony will live on, yesterday I was given news that a friend of mine for my childhood, her sister lost her battle with cancer. This past week I struggled to see the positive side to my daily life, I struggled to make the right choices; I struggled to realize the promises that had been given to me. But out of all these things....each day the promises are new....

Weight loss: +1

Total Weight loss: -107 pounds

A hard place

Between a rock and a hard place. That's how I've been feeling lately.....then, THEN I am informed of a situation in someone else's life that brings me back to the rock...and to realize that the place I am in isn't hard. The place that I am stuck at isn't forever. My hard place will soon be easy again.

Sometimes the direction in life is unknown and unclear. Sometimes the choices we think would make the most out of our situation isn't really the best for us. Sometimes the unknown is really going to be ok. For the last few weeks I've watched the show Secret Millionaire and touched by the stories these people come across. Again realizing that my situation in life could be so much worse. I hold tight to my rock, I hold tight to my hope and I hold tight to my faith and I am thankful.

This rock and hard place won't last forever, it won't be the "norm", and I will learn and grow from this. These situations will make me stronger and appreciate what I've been given for this day.

Weight loss: 0

Total weight loss: -108 pounds

In the glory

In the darkness of times sometimes it's hard to find the glory, to see the light at the end of the tunnel.....in the tunnel and waiting to see the light at the end of this tunnel I'm currently in.

"For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11

Weight loss: -1 pounds

Total Weight loss: -108 pounds

I wish, I may, I wish I might.....

Have this wish I wish tonight....so true right! Wishes are a catch 22 I think. Here is the reason why. Lately I've been reading and hearing from people how they are "wishing" their lives away. They want to get to the next best thing instead of enjoying the moment that they have right now instead of missing it because they want the next best thing. The next vacation, the next relationship, the next job, the next something...you see what I'm saying.

But the next point of this is that a wish should never be taken lightly because wishes turn into someone's dreams and hopes. I came across this picture and found it very interesting. It's a wishing tree. People write their wishes and hopes on cards and hang them from a tree. Maybe it brings peace to that person's life or hope that they never had, but it's sort of symbolic because it’s like prayer but on a card. Wishes and dreams are never to be made fun of because they are someone’s to hold onto and believe in.

When we believe in those wishes and hopes, eventually they will become reality and then you can sit back and enjoy the ride. Enjoy the moment, they are only for a minute...stop wishing your life away and start loving it.

Weight loss: 0

Total Weight loss: -107 pounds * I was unable to weigh myself this morning due to being distracted by a spider in my bathroom. Though I know he was "more" afraid of me then I should be of him,(that's a conversation for another day) I was still unable to remember all I needed to do this morning...I was afraid he would run my way or something. See now you know how much I don't like spiders :) Make it a fantastic day.

To be 10

Do you remember what it were like to be 10? When you finally arrived at the double digits, no longer a small child but beginning the journey into your young adult life? Seems like yesterday doesn't it. ;) Well today, on this beautiful morning my niece is turning 10 years old. It feels just like yesterday that she arrived in this world. And now she is celebrating her 10th birthday. Doesn't seem possible, but so excited for her!

There are certain birthdays that are more "important" then others. But those that know me well know that every birthday is as important as the next. 5, 10, 15, 16, 18, 21, 25, 30... all very special birthdays. I think it's important to celebrate, celebrate big. A birthday is meant to be special, cherished and lots of good memories made from those moments.

Life is already to short, why not celebrate even the smallest things...I do! :)

Happy Birthday Emma! I love you, you are going to be such a beautiful young lady and I am so thankful that you are in our lives! Happy Birthday!

Weight loss: -1 pound

Total Weight loss: -108 pounds

One way or.........

I don't know too many people who wouldn't tell you that as a child they loved to swing. I think if I was allowed I could have been on the swing for hours. I always like to see how high I could get, but I'd never follow through with it because I was scared of heights and even though the swing set seemed like it was strong enough I never fully put my trust in it. In the back of my mind I would think that something would give and I'd fall or the swing would break. Yes these are the thoughts that tend to run through my mind.

Something in the last sentence is still so very real and true in my life today. Letting go and trusting. Not being able to put my full trust into something or someone. It's human nature for sure, some of us trust people 100% in the beginning till they give you a reason not to trust them. Others don't trust till it's earned. For me, it depends on the situation and the person. But lately, I've had a hard time finding a balance between the two. I want to trust, but in my mind I'm back on the swing, wanting to go as high as I can, but not being able to trust that the swing would hold out.

My trust issues have been encouraged this past week with answers to prayer. Not for me, but for other people in my life. I am so excited to celebrate these blessings and answers to prayer. It reminds me that I need to keep moving forward, to pray, to swing as high as I can and to not be afraid. How high is your swing going to take you?

Weight loss: 0

Total Weight loss: -107 pounds