Joined together

This weekend two people will get married....at this point you might be saying to yourself, "Amanda that was last weekend." Right-this wedding, the royal wedding was last weekend but I am talking about my cousin and her future husband are getting married this weekend.

Weddings! Who doesn't love a good wedding, people joining their lives together, making a commitment between each other that should never be broke. This is the ultimate sign of trust that two people will ever enter into. So much will be tested, so much will be tried and so much will be uncertain but when two people truly love each other, and their relationship with Christ is strong then marriage should be....

Ah I left you hanging didn't I? See that last sentence is something you'd have to fill in for yourself. I've been there...but it wasn't in the cards of life for it to be true, really. The trust I once had in that situation is broken and for almost 6 years I have had to re learn what trust is all about. A wedding is a great day to dress up and celebrate but the real parts starts the moment after the last guest leaves and you look at your partner and say "Now what?!” Marriage is hard on the best of days...

Lately my trust, my lessons of life are being tested...yes I'm ok with it. I am all dressed up and ready to celebrate this new journey but when all the hoopla is finished you better believe I will be saying "now what?!" And I cling to my relationship with Christ.

*Haven't worked out this week-that's a palm to the forehead...fail. Back at it on Monday. Enjoy your weekend-I'll be celebrating love!

Weight loss: -1 pound

Total Weight loss: -113 pounds

Landing....but not feet first

You've heard the saying, it will be ok because you'll land feet first...well normally that would be the case in most situations right now in my life. I'll land feet first and maybe even take off running. But right now I am ok with also landing on my "back side".

A lot is happening right now. Many unknowns, many "worried" situations but one thing I know for sure I will land, just not really sure how. I have trust, I have strength and I have faith. Those three things will help to cushion the fall that I am going through right now. Even perfect days can end in rain...and that's ok. I am learning through this whole process, I am being tested, I am being molded....and I am ok with it all.

Side note, gas prices sure make people re think what they would normally do...like go to the gym. Now I am only going to the gym if I have to be in that area for something else. It's frustrating yes because I really like going to the gym-clears my mind. But this gas price thing is becoming the new norm and we must adjust.

Weight loss: 0

Total weight loss: -112 pounds

Thread

This picture sums up how I'm feeling. All the things that I have learned, all the life lessons that I have been through have brought me to this moment. Good and bad! I almost feel like I'm on a train track facing another train coming full speed ahead right for me. It's like a battle of who will jump first. I am nervous, I have a lot of unknowns, but I also have peace, I have trust in Christ, I have strength. I can honestly say that I have no idea where my next "whatever" is going to come from. But I know that if it wasn't for all that I've been through I wouldn't be able to get through this.

I have all faith, all love, all joy, all strength, all trust that my heavenly father will never leave me or forsake me. No matter what HE won't let me fail.

Weight loss: -1 pound

Total Weight loss: -112 pounds

Still kicking

Just a quick note that I am still around, just super busy trying to put together my life all of a sudden. So much happening just not really sure how to explain it all....but I am still kicking. :) I have only worked out once this week...many things are factoring into it....and another one hit me today, $4.15 in gas! Makes you re think EVERYTHING that you do.

Hope everyone has had a good week! I promise for more updates soon.

Weight loss: 0

Total Weight loss: -112 pounds

Point

So the last 24 to 48 hours have been pretty interesting to say the least. But, BUT it's all ok. Life has a funny way of preparing you for things when you least expect it. I never realized that this past year as I was working hard at losing weight that it was really preparing me for this moment, this new journey of being prepared and dedicated. I will need to now be more determined and focused then I have ever been in my life. And I am ok with all this.

Last night I worked out, felt great. It was one of the hardest work outs I've had because I pushed myself, really pushed. I did a 6 incline and tried to maintain a speed of 3.5 speeds. But I had a hard time staying in the 3.5 speed; I eventually stayed at the 3 speed. But when I left I felt great. A little sore this morning but it's nothing that I can't over come.

Each day is going to be filled with something new, something to learn and something to figure out....I CAN'T WAIT! Let the games begin!

Weight loss: -1 pound

Total Weight loss: -112 pounds

Let the fog roll in

A new day, new possibilities and opportunities are ahead of me. BUT the fog has rolled in. Ironically this morning on my way into work the fog was pretty thick. I noticed that even looking at the road behind me I couldn't tell where I had come from. Even looking ahead the road was hard to follow. It sort of seems like life at the moment. I'm not concerned because this new path that I am about to take....well I've had plenty of things in life prepare me for this moment.

A year ago today I started my whole weight loss thing. Exciting yes and to look back and see that I have put a year in with this....WOO HOO, How can I not be excited about losing -111 pounds in 1 year! I still have about 60 more to go, but I know that those 60 may be a little harder then the first 111...ha!

I'm sticking with it, moving forward and making no excuses to see this all through. The fog is clearing and my path will be more defined then it has ever been!

Weight loss: 0

Total weight loss: -111 pounds

Rise...

HE has risen....HE has risen indeed! What a wonderful statement to wake up to on this cold raining day. Just like years before, this Easter is as sweet as the one before. It's not because of the candy...don't miss the point. It's because my savior, HE is risen. After paying the ultimate sacrafice...HE is risen. For me HE died, for me HE paid the price, for me HE lives and loves me. Nothing better. The mountains sing HIS glory, the canyons echo sweet amazing grace....So on this day, HE is risen, HE is risen indeed.

Much has happened in the last week...the last two days actually. I am taking one of the biggest...actually let's just call it what it is, I am taking THEE biggest leap of faith I've ever done in my life. I am starting a new path, a new career, a new beginning. I am of course a little nervous, but I am optimistic that through all things....it will work out for the right reasons. I woke up yesterday with a good sense of strength and joy in my heart. I also woke up feeling a weight has been lifted from my shoulders. Though this new path is just being laid out before me, I am optimistic.

I didn't get my work out in as much as I needed to this past week. But I did get a chance to work out for 2 hours Friday night. It was really good, I felt like I really worked hard. BUT I also felt that I need to work harder. That I have no room for anything to come in between my ultimate goal. I will continue to get on the treadmill to "no where" and work at my ultimate goal of being healthier, more energy....I will see it through.

With each step of this journey I realize the strength that GOD has given me. That no matter what, no matter what I walk through....light....dark....foggy....raining.....hot.....windy....cool breeze.....lighting.....thunder....snow.....peace. It will all be ok because...well it just will be.

Where ever you go....go with heart.

Weight loss: 0

Total Weight loss: -111 pounds