Still pushing through

I am not really at 100% yet, but I am on my way. I hope that this weekend I'll have some good quality time with my family and friends. I need to just relax and focus on the people and things that are most important and dear to my life. Everything else like worry, stress and disappointment have no place in my life anymore. It's not to say that I won't have those things, but I won't dwell on them, I won't let them win the battle that I'm currently working through.

Through all this I have been able to maintain and also lose a pound or two. I haven't given up this journey, the things that have happened this week have made me stronger and for that I am glad.

Weight loss: -1 pound

Total Weight loss: -76 pounds and -29 inches.

Have a blessed weekend my friends.

Still in the middle...

I'm still in the middle of all the stuff that's gone on this week. I do see some light at the end of the tunnel, but I'm having a hard time getting back into eating. It's not agreeing with me. I am use to this though because when I've ever been upset or nervous etc in my life my eating and my body don't react together, they fight each other. So I am slowly getting back into it again. Just frustrating at times that things take hold of me and my body reacts like this.

I'm taking one day at a time, as we should and I know that bigger and better things will happen.

Weight loss: 0

Total Weight loss: -75 pounds and -29 inches.

The moments that define us.

I wish I had some really great insightful things to say today, but I don't. Unfortunatley I am dealing with something in my personal life that has in a way turned myself upside down for the moment. A friend of mine has decided that after 5 years of friendship it's time to part ways. Though my heart is heavy and I am sadden by this whole situation, I know that this moment won't define me, but it will be by my actions or reactions that decided how I'll move on. I believe that when one journey ends another one begins and turns out to be so much better. Needless to say with this turn of events, my eating has been minimal to nothing. When I am stressed, sad, upset or discouraged I don't eat. I get sick to my stomach and I then spend days trying to get my body back to where I was prior to the news or event that put me here.

I know that it's not the end of the world, I know that I'm blessed with amazing friends in my life that want to be in my life because they care and love me. I know I have a remarkable support team in my life and no matter what happens, people, my family, my friends are walking beside me cheering me on. I am blessed.

Weight loss: -1 pound

Total weight loss: -75 pounds and -29 inches.

I'm back

Well after 3 days of traveling and resting, I am ready to update. The wedding went fine and even though it was hard to eat the right things, I did. I know though I didn't have enough eater or all the fruit and veggies I needed, I was still able to maintain. Today though I am dealing with a pretty intense headache. I am hoping that it's just me needing to get back into the swing of things. Though I am also dealing with some personal things too....life is never boring.

Weight loss: -2 pounds

Total weight loss: -74 pounds and -29 pounds.

Here we come...

Less then 24 hours from now my mother and I will be on our way to Denver for my cousins wedding. It's crazy that this day is finally here, I feel like we've been talking about it for awhile now. I am excited about the memories that will be made and seeing my cousin take this new step in his life. I hardly slept last night because I had a million things running through my mind. I'm going to be gone for 1 night and I feel like I'm forgetting something. But I figured if I do, then I never needed it. The most important would be my dress and shoes, everything else not so much. :)

This will be my last entry till Monday. I won't get a chance to do any blog while I'm gone, but for those of you that have my as a friend on facebook I'll be documenting my trip via there. I am so excited to be where I'm at with losing 70 pounds by his wedding. My goal was 50-60 and I smashed that number. I am back in the routine of drinking the water I need and making sure I'm staying the course. Have a great weekend, enjoy those around you and remember nothing in life is ever worth worrying about.

Weight loss: -1 pound

Total weight loss: -72 pounds and -29 inches.

It fits!

Well I'm all set for the wedding this weekend. I picked up my bridesmaid dress and it fits perfect, actually could of had another inch taken off the back, but it's perfect. Now we can get on with the show. I really enjoyed last night with my family. My mom and I where having a good time laughing about a few things that are currently going on in our lives. It's so important to laugh, I really wish I did more of it. I need to stop taking life so seriously all the time. That's my new goal too, laugh more!

I'm not sure if it was the two pieces of pizza that I ate the other night or the fact that I haven't had enough water for the last 2-3 days, but this morning the scales showed me what's going on. What's going on is that I gained 2 pounds. I'm not upset because this is the first time I've gained anything in about 2-3 weeks. I also know too that this will come off again. I am thinking with all the crazyness that's been going on lately that this would of happened sooner then later. So today, it's back to the basics and drinking all the water I need to and eating the foods too.

Make this a fantastic day!

Weight loss: +2

Total Weight loss: -71 pounds and -29 inches.

Looking good

Good Morning to all. I first want to say that I am so glad that Makayla and my parents arrived home safely last night from spending 9 days in CA. They had a great time and tons of memories. So thankful that they had this opporunity to go, though I missed them while they where gone. I was able to pick them up from the airport yesterday afternoon and after giving the hugs, my parents said we see less of you. It sure was a great feeling to hear that. My dad also commented once we got home how he could tell. I know it's harder when your with someone all the time to really see the change, but being away and coming back...they noticed! I am excited for that.

Because it was a world wind once we got home no one was really in the mood to make dinner so Pizza Hut was called in to make it for us. For the first time in almost 4 months I had 2 pieces of thin crust pizza. I know it's not an all the time thing...actually not again till I reach my goal weight. But the odd thing was, it wasn't that good actually. I use to LOVE pizza, I could have it everyday if I wanted. But now, it wasn't so much. Crazy how things and tastes change......

Tonight I'll pick up my bridesmaid dress. She took 2 inches off each side and 4 in the back. I am a little nervous, but I think that's normal. Even though I have been losing the weight a part of me still is a little nervous that she didn't make it to small. With only 2 days left till we leave, it really leaves no time for error. So here's to hoping that all goes well. :) I'll let you know how it all turns out tomorrow.


Weight loss: -1 pound

Total Weight Loss: -73 pounds and -29 inches.