In the middle of struggles...

Disclaimer: nothing to do with weight loss today...so bare with me :)

Over the last 5-6 months I've heard of tragedy in many peoples lives. It's the kind of news that no one ever wants to hear or deal with. The picture I posted with this blog today was sent to me a few months ago, it's of a little boy receiving the American flag because either his mother or father had died serving our country. His face speaks volumes for all of us that one time or another had to receive a gift of appreciation in the midst of overwhelming sadness. But also his face reflects how we often try to put on such a brave face to get through the most difficult situations....

Almost 6 years ago my grandfather passed away. He lived a good life, a full life and at the end of his life the United States presented my dad with the American flag, "thanking" my grandfather for the service to defending our country. I have witnessed this twice in my life and both times it impacted my life. So much symbolism in that very act of presenting the flag, it represents the protection of our country, the freedom that we do often take for granted.

Each time I hear of someone else dealing with tragedy or uncertainty because they've lost a loved one....I pray. I close my eyes and in silence of my thoughts and heart I pray....

Make this day one that will be memorable



Weight loss: 0

Total Weight loss: -127 pounds

Getting results

Troy can attest that his hard work and dedication has presented great results...in this picture you see what his hard work got him...the super bowl. What your doing today...is it getting results? How your living your life....is that getting results? Is your diet or way you eat.....is that getting results? Interesting how everything you do in your life needs, must warrant results or you shouldn't be doing it. I live this in my job every day. If what your doing isn't creating results that you need, that you like then change it. Change the way you do things to get the results that YOU want. OK...that's the lecture for today.

I wrapped up an appointment today with a really good customer, contact that I've had for a few years now. I'm thankful that I've met this person and really feel like it's a benefit to know them. When we where finished with our appointment he asked me a question that no one in all my business life has ever asked me..."So are you happy with the results of this meeting?" Really!?!? Your asking me? I answered and then repeated it back to him and his response is, as long as there is a positive outcome for both of us then the result of this meeting was worth it. Interesting way to present it. Makes you think....always like challenging things that make you think outside the box.

Weight loss: 0

Total Weight loss: -128 pounds

What happened to yesterday?

I didn't even realize that I didn't write in my blog yesterday! It was a busy day at work and last night I started to work on my taxes. I don't mind doing my taxes but I always feel like I'm missing out on so much, but then I think simple is best right...keep things simple then nothing has to get complicated. It's life, keep my diet and eating habits simple and then it won't be complicated when I'm faced with the challenges of sticking to it....sometimes easier said then done.

We're in the middle of a good snow storm...I love it! I love this time of year, why because I know it's going to happen every year....taxes, snow, cold, etc...it's going to happen. :)

Make this a great day!

Weight loss: 0

Total Weight loss: -128 pounds

Hmmm

This picture just made me laugh...not sure if it's the fact that this person who owns this car is never going to get in it till spring or that nature tends to do things that make us marvel at it's splendor. I don't have a lot on my mind other then being very busy today, which I love! I am thankful for days like today!

Weight loss: 0

Total weight loss: 128 pounds.

My feet hurt...

Boy my feet have hurt for the last few days. I thought to myself that maybe it's the type of shoes I wear...close to this picture, but then I also started to think the other reason...maybe it's all the "weight" I've been carring around for so many years. Not just the physical weight but the emotional and mental weight too. Not sure if I shared this earlier in the week, but I came face to face with a real problem I have had in my life this week. I don't deal with "life" when it happens. I've been one to put the "face of ok" on and move past whatever has happened, but pushing those emotions, feelings way down inside in hopes that I wouldn't see them again. But that has changed because realizing that this is who I've been has answered a lot more questions on the reason I was so over weight for so many years. I ate to hide how I felt, what I was dealing with. Thinking the whole time that I was "fixing" the problem but all reality I was making it worse...a lot worse.

So the weight that I've been carring around for 12 years now has started to show it self in more ways then one. Losing 127 pounds does a lot to your body, it has to adjust, my feet are not carring an "extra" person anymore and they don't know what to do with themselves....but my feet have also carried the burden of my struggles. You hear people say that you must take care of your feet or you'll have major problems in your future....it's so true! So lesson learned, take care of your feet...you need them to take you all the places you will/want to go. :)

*Just thought this picture was funny....maybe I'll get these for Christmas...NOT! :)


Weight loss: 0

Total Weight Loss: -127 pounds

Decisions, Decisions

No matter what decisions we make, good or bad there is always going to be some sort of consequence with it...Right! Well the decision I made to not really "follow" my plan for the month of December is catching up with me. My body is screaming at my right now as if to say, WHAT HAVE YOU BEEN DOING?!?! It's not that I did the wrong things, but I didn't incorporate enough of the right things...my stomach, my body in general is on strike from what I've been doing...makes for some fun times....


So it's back to the right decision I made and get myself back to what I need to be doing!


Weight loss: 0

Total Weight loss: -127 pounds

And so it goes...

I'm a thinker...sometimes I think to much, sometimes I don't think enough. Sometimes it gets me in trouble and sometimes it makes things way better....I just wish I wasn't over analyzing things all the time. I've shared that I'm reading the book Eat, Pray, Love and maybe it's timing, maybe it's because I'm looking for the "next thing" in my life to be busy with, but I'm finding that this book brings a lot of ah ha moments to me. Finding something in life that you've wanted to do and do it...what holds us back....well for me, I'm held back by fear most of the time, what would people think, why would anyone want to do that? The questions, the over thinking of things takes hold most of the time in those situations and I never do it. I never take hold of those "feelings and thoughts". But that's all changing, I'm working through, battling some of the inner thoughts and overcoming it so I can do what I've always wanted to do....what might that be...not sure yet but when I know, I'll for sure share it! :)

Make this a positive day with positive thoughts!

Weight loss: -1 pound

Total Weight loss: -128 pounds