Experiences

Last night was a big success and I feel very honored and humbled to be apart of a great charity event. This opportunity that I was given was overwhelming to me when you step back and think about the ramifications on what the food bank really does. At some point in our lives, we will either ourselves or know someone who does need the food bank. It makes you stop and look at the bigger picture a lot clearer.

The food was great, for those that know me I am not by any means a seafood lover. I actually run the opposite way. Lucky for me about 90% of the dishes last night being served had some sort of seafood in it. Fab! Just great, I thought to myself this isn't going to be good and I'll pass. BUT, but I didn't. I put my big girl pants on and I tried new things. Call me crazy, but it was ok...I won't say good or great. Haven't gotten to that level, but it was ok and I survived. :)

Ths whole experience helped open my eyes to a lot of things. For starters, I realize or should say re started my passion for helping others. Corporate 9-5 jobs don't seem like they fit in my life. Helping people, having a passion for things like last night do. Makes one think and re exam their own lives...that's all I'm saying about that one. :)

Overall it was a successful evening and one that I won't forget for years to come.

Weight loss: -1 pound

Total weight loss: -92 pounds.

WOW

WOW can be well what it is or turned upside down it's MOM. Well this morning my mom said to me that she could really tell that I've lost weight and honestly, that's the best thing I could of heard this morning. For me it was a "woo hoo" moment because when you see someone every day, you don't always realize the changes that they are going through. But it's great when people realize, can't lie-makes one feel pretty good about themselves and what their doing. :)

So tonight's a big night for me. I get to be apart of a pretty great event. The Akron Canton Foodbank is hosting the Taste of the NFL at the Pro Football Hall of Fame and I get to be apart of it. All the money raised goes to help the Foodbank which is a great cause. I never realized how we truely need them in our community till I got a chance to tour the building and learn about what they are doing for our community. Now more then ever people need them. So tonight will be a good way to get on board and help support our area. I just need to stick to my plan and watch what I eat and drink tonight...things like this you could totally get carried away. :)

Weight loss: 0

Total Weight loss: -91 pounds.

I haven't forgotten...

I had good intentions to blog over the weekend but as soon as the thought went into my mind it went out just as fast. This weekend we celebrated my dad's 60th birthday. Hard to believe he's 60, but he's in great health. My mom cooked a thanksgiving style meal for his birthday and boy I was stuffed. To the point of being so uncomfortable. Glad to celebrate, but won't eat like that again..the feeling isn't fun what so ever. Saturday was just a normal run around day, but then watched the Ohio State football team pull off a win! Always a plus.

I did a lot of thinking this weekend. There is a lot going on right now that I don't really want to get into at the moment, but it's causing me to step back and make some serious decisions. Decisions that I wish I didn't have to make at the moment, but there really isn't any other choice. I've been in this boat before, actually to many times...i'd like to tie this boat up and not have to jump on anymore. But it's life and these types of things have to be done.

The good thing is that inspite of eating to much for my dad's birthday and bring a little overwhelmed, I was still able to lose more weight. Hitting 100 pounds is closer then it's ever been in my life, I am so excited to get to that point. 9 pounds away from making it a reality. We'll see how long it takes me to get there. :)

Weigt loss: -2 pounds

Total Weight loss: -91 pounds.

Oh the stress...

Today I would like to eat my way through a package of Oreo's. Maybe the double stuff ones. Or the mint, those sound good too. Yep, that's the kind of day I am having. Needless to say I haven't had lunch and I am starving so of course I'm thinking of all the bad things I shouldn't eat. Hey, just me being honest. :)

But it all goes back to a few days or weeks ago when I made the statement that I am an emotional stress eater. That I know my buttons that are pushed and understand what sets them off. Today was like an all out assault on my stress level. But the good thing is that I haven't gone to the vending machine and tipped it over or put my $2.00 I have on me in the pop machine. Trust me, all very tempting but NOT worth it.

These are the days that help me figure out who I am, how I deal with things and learn how to cope.....this too, this day shall pass.

Weight loss: 0

Total Weight loss: -89 pounds.

New pants

I've never been so excited about a atricle of clothing then I am right now. I have a pair of dress pants that I haven't worn in YEARS and they fit! They fit and I have no saggy backside...we'll keep it G rated. :) But I love it, I love the feeling of feeling "normal". That might sound odd, but it means that I can sit in a booth and not have it be tight, I can ride on a plane and not worry if the seat belt is going to fit...WHY didn't I do this years ago? Why did I allow myself to live like this? I don't know all the reasons but I know some...but it doesn't matter anymore because I'm on my way to a better me, a happier, healthier me! That's what counts!

Weight loss: -1 pound

Total Weight loss: -89 pounds.

Big Event

So a week from today I will be attending the Taste of the NFL at the Hall of Fame. It's a big event that supports the local food banks in our area. This event brings in 10 past enshrines to the event and about 300-400 people in the area to raise money. Everything raised through ticket sales and that nights events goes to the food bank. It's a great cause and I am very excited to be apart of it. That being said....I have to look top notch. Not to say I don't already, but wearing baggy pants and a shirt two sizes to big won't cut it for that evening. SO...I will be hitting all the local consignment shops to see if I can find something for that night. We'll see what I will come up with. I mean I was thinking of wearing my wedding dress but I didn't want to stand out in the crowd ;)

This week is already shaping up to be a pretty busy week....so put your running shoes on and get moving :)

Weight loss: 0

Total Weight loss: -88 pounds.

A step in the right direction

In life we take many steps, good indifferent and not so great. Each step either puts us closer to a goal or farther away from what we know is right. Every step is either measured on how long it took us to get there or how fast we reached our goal. But with every step we make we learn something new about ourselves, what we can and can't handle. This weight loss journey has brought many steps, good and bad. I've learned a lot about who I am as a person and how I deal with things in my life. For years I dealt with pain, hurt and frustration with food. I buried my feelings and thoughts with the chocolate brownie, or the bag of chips. In the end not only was I filled with emptiness but overwhelming guilt for putting my body through all that. BUT now, it's not the case, I am actually dealing with all this head on, no matter how bad the hurt feels or the pain cuts deep, I am dealing with it with out food. I am taking the steps I need to deal with all of this in the right way.

I love the feeling of putting on a pair of jeans and they fall off...that's fun to me. I have 1 pair of jeans that I can some what wear but I'm sporting the baggy jeans look for the moment. I love seeing less and less of myself...this journey is exciting!

Weight loss: -5 pounds

Total Weight Loss: -88 pounds.