Oh the stress...

Today I would like to eat my way through a package of Oreo's. Maybe the double stuff ones. Or the mint, those sound good too. Yep, that's the kind of day I am having. Needless to say I haven't had lunch and I am starving so of course I'm thinking of all the bad things I shouldn't eat. Hey, just me being honest. :)

But it all goes back to a few days or weeks ago when I made the statement that I am an emotional stress eater. That I know my buttons that are pushed and understand what sets them off. Today was like an all out assault on my stress level. But the good thing is that I haven't gone to the vending machine and tipped it over or put my $2.00 I have on me in the pop machine. Trust me, all very tempting but NOT worth it.

These are the days that help me figure out who I am, how I deal with things and learn how to cope.....this too, this day shall pass.

Weight loss: 0

Total Weight loss: -89 pounds.

New pants

I've never been so excited about a atricle of clothing then I am right now. I have a pair of dress pants that I haven't worn in YEARS and they fit! They fit and I have no saggy backside...we'll keep it G rated. :) But I love it, I love the feeling of feeling "normal". That might sound odd, but it means that I can sit in a booth and not have it be tight, I can ride on a plane and not worry if the seat belt is going to fit...WHY didn't I do this years ago? Why did I allow myself to live like this? I don't know all the reasons but I know some...but it doesn't matter anymore because I'm on my way to a better me, a happier, healthier me! That's what counts!

Weight loss: -1 pound

Total Weight loss: -89 pounds.

Big Event

So a week from today I will be attending the Taste of the NFL at the Hall of Fame. It's a big event that supports the local food banks in our area. This event brings in 10 past enshrines to the event and about 300-400 people in the area to raise money. Everything raised through ticket sales and that nights events goes to the food bank. It's a great cause and I am very excited to be apart of it. That being said....I have to look top notch. Not to say I don't already, but wearing baggy pants and a shirt two sizes to big won't cut it for that evening. SO...I will be hitting all the local consignment shops to see if I can find something for that night. We'll see what I will come up with. I mean I was thinking of wearing my wedding dress but I didn't want to stand out in the crowd ;)

This week is already shaping up to be a pretty busy week....so put your running shoes on and get moving :)

Weight loss: 0

Total Weight loss: -88 pounds.

A step in the right direction

In life we take many steps, good indifferent and not so great. Each step either puts us closer to a goal or farther away from what we know is right. Every step is either measured on how long it took us to get there or how fast we reached our goal. But with every step we make we learn something new about ourselves, what we can and can't handle. This weight loss journey has brought many steps, good and bad. I've learned a lot about who I am as a person and how I deal with things in my life. For years I dealt with pain, hurt and frustration with food. I buried my feelings and thoughts with the chocolate brownie, or the bag of chips. In the end not only was I filled with emptiness but overwhelming guilt for putting my body through all that. BUT now, it's not the case, I am actually dealing with all this head on, no matter how bad the hurt feels or the pain cuts deep, I am dealing with it with out food. I am taking the steps I need to deal with all of this in the right way.

I love the feeling of putting on a pair of jeans and they fall off...that's fun to me. I have 1 pair of jeans that I can some what wear but I'm sporting the baggy jeans look for the moment. I love seeing less and less of myself...this journey is exciting!

Weight loss: -5 pounds

Total Weight Loss: -88 pounds.

Relax

I'm thankful for today, I'm thankful for Friday and I'm thankful that this week...August is over. That being said I am getting back on the 3 day start again. I'm thankful that it's a holiday weekend....a heads up for next week, I might be unavailable to update due to being on jury duty. So we'll see....

That being said, have a fun, safe, relaxing and enjoyable Labor day weekend!

Weight loss: 0

Total Weight loss: -83 pounds.

Food

So today is a bring in food at work day. I have to say that it's one of the hardest days for me so far. My desk sits directly across the way from the table with all the food on it. It's ok, I'm staying strong and realizing it's not worth giving in today. I just might think of installing a door at my cube in the next week. HA

Weight loss: -1 pound

Total weight loss: -83 pounds.

Spending Time...

Sometimes I think...wait, all the time...we get so wrapped up in what's going on right now that we don't take time to really enjoy what's REALLY going on around us. Last night I had the opportunity to included my daughter into the Young Professionals group that I am apart of. Even though the stress of getting all the things together for the event and making sure we had all our bases covered, it was a blessing to spend that time with her. We had such a wonderful time just the two of us, laughing and walking through the McKinley Museum and talking about all sorts of things. Those are the memories that I cling to when I get wrapped up in the other stresses of life. She is my blessing and I am so thankful that God has allowed me to be her mother.

Because the theme for last nights' event was Bring out the kid in you, we didn't have the best food choices...so I had pizza last night. I paid for it this morning...gained a pound, but I won't beat myself up over it, it was just one night, having a great time with my daughter and charishing it.

Weight loss: +1

Total Weight loss: -82 pounds.