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So being wide awake at 4:45 am has it's advantages......ok it really doesn't. HA. I laid in bed this morning thinking about everything I don't need to be thinking about. The quiet times this morning allowed me the chance to reflect and regain my focus.

I'm going through another transformation. This time it's inward that I'm changing. The outward appearance and how I'm feeling is doing well. I feel great and look good, I like seeing less of myself. I look forward to seeing even less of what I am now. I was reading an article yesterday about foods, calories and all goes into things...sure makes you think twice before you pick up that Twix or get a milkshake. Just crazy how some things can have more calories then what you should have in 3 days. And we consume it in one meal or snack. CRAZY!

I'm starting to feel better and get the energy I need back..so here's to a strong finish to this week and an even better weekend! Are you with me? :)

Weight loss: -1 pound

Total Weight Loss: -108 pounds.

Turn that frawn upside down...

Sorry that I'm blogging a little later then normal. I actually went to write this first thing but I realized that I had nothing but complaining to talk about. I woke up this morning down on myself for whatever reason, being frustrated with certain people...not to worry it's no one reading this, beginning to questions certain things going on in my life right now....then I heard the news. It was enough for me to stop the "poor me" and "why me" thoughts and realize that right now 33 people and 33 families where given a second chance..a chance to see their loved ones again and the opportunity to touch lives. I've been checking on and off about the progress they are making to get all the minors out and the pictures and reactions make my heart leap and the tears fill my eyes. We take so much for granted. So much! And it's times like this that make me disgusted with how I feel and think sometimes, that I get wrapped up in "I" and that's not what it's about. It's not about me, it's about those around me, what am I bring to the table to make someone else life better today...makes you think.

So...I've always been told if you can't say anything nice, don't say anything at all. Today I realized that all those things I can't say...it's not worth it. Rejoicing with those who have received great news, crying with those who hurt, listening to those who need to speak and praying for those around me, that's what it's all about. I haven't felt that good this week, chalk it up for the time of year, but when I don't feel well I tend to turn inward as I think most of us do. I'm OK with that, because if it wasn't for that...I wouldn't of had the chance to realize the bigger picture today...once again it's not about me.

Care for one another!

Weight loss: 0

Total weight loss: -107 pounds.

Where have I been....

Boy...it's been a blah few days. Good news, last night my brother and his wife welcomed their first child into this world! Elle Ann 7 pounds, 12 oz and 22 inches long. Mommy and baby are doing well. Very excited about this news, makes all the other not so good things going on seem not important. :) She's a blessing and I can't wait to meet her. GOD is great all the time!

I've been sick for the last few days. Flu I believe. I'm tired of being tired and sick. I can't remember the last time that I was sick like this and back to back. Though this week was way worse then last week. I haven't had much of an appetite, I have had peach jello and water...sounds exciting doesn't it. I am hoping that soon I'll start to feel better. Today is a little better, but I am just taking it easy. Because of being sick I was home yesterday and between sleeping and watching TV, there was a show on about people with addictions to food. Pretty crazy stuff, I watched one show and that was enough for me. But this kid, 24 actually, all he had been eating for the last 2 years was pizza. That's all he could eat and he went on this show to help him break this habit. The Dr. on the show did all these tests and showed this kid what was happening to his body because he was only eating that...lets just say that it made me sick to my stomach what was happening to him. He was going to die if he didn't change his ways. Just like everything, to much of something is never a good thing. Once again, we have the control to change the habits and lifestyles if we really want to. If the desire is great, we will do it.

Getting better one day at a time.

Weight loss: -3 pounds

Total Weight loss: -107 pounds.

One...

Well one pound decided to join me again. Not frustrated because it's just one, but still...it does bring things back to the basics again when I see that one pound on the scale. Not worried, I will just work again to get it off again. I haven't been sleeping well at all, I got to bed tired but then 2 hours later I am wide awake for a few...eventually I fall back asleep, but I am wondering what's going on with this different sleeping habit. :( Hope it doesn't last.

I'm feeling a little better today but not 100% still. I hope with the nice weekend that all those who have been sick get better before the cold hits again next week. I plan on enjoying my favorite time of year this weekend, I hope you do too!

Pressing on.

Weight loss: +1 (haven't put a + in front of a number in a long time)

Total Weight loss: -104 pounds

Options

Boy do we have options! Ever think about that? I mean really...something small like going to the ATM. Put your card in, you enter your pin number and a screen pops up with options. That's one example...another is going out to eat, endless options. But the flip side to this...all these options have consequences. Good or bad. Doesn't matter. The options we chose result in the consequences we will face. Ok so you might wonder what in the world is she getting at. Let me explain. This whole week I've thought a lot about different options I have related to a multitude of things that are going on in my life. And beside the weight loss I really haven't thought about the consequences of some of my options I'm about to make. Long term that is. I had to say no to an additional commitment someone wanted me to make. I haven't said no to something in a long time. But I thought of my options with this particular request and think of the consequences...time away from my family, not being able to give 100%, money...so I made the choice to decline and it felt weird.

I'm so glad that the option...really the choice to get rid of this weight has lead to an unbelievable consequence..better health, looking and feeling better, a new attitude, a better out look on life, committing to something and seeing it through. Very thankful that I made this choice.

Weight loss: 0

Total weight loss: -105 pounds.

*I'm very excited that this weekend we will be taking some new pictures...honestly I'm tired of seeing the "old me". :)

Under the weather

I am under the weather and would rather be in my bed. UGH. Not sure with all the weather changing or the fact that most of the people in my office have been sick, but this isn't a fun time of year. Needless to say I don't have a lot on my mind other then sleep and getting better.

I did lose 3 more pounds but I am counting that from being sick. :(

Stay healthy!

Weight loss: -3 pounds

Total Weight loss: -105 pounds.

The past is still very real in the present.

Today...well today is a hard day for me. I actually thought as years go by that these feelings and emotions go away, with time. But it seems like each year that passes it is a reminder of all the pain and hurt from a decision. I am blessed because out of all the feelings of sadness I have joy, I have joy of a beautiful little girl. She's my joy. :) Last night she was so precious, she came into my room gave me the biggest hug and took her little hands put them on my face and gave me a kiss. It was beautiful and my heart once again was filled with joy. In spite of all that happens in our lives now more then ever we need to find the joy, the good, the positive, the wonderful in life. To many times we are burdened with bad news, heartache, hurt, frustration, worry. But we must not forget that all those things can be laid at HIS feet and that we don't have to carry the burden.

This weekend I had a chance to do a lot of reflecting and start to prepare my mind for the final lap to get me to my goal. I won't let anything bring me down, stop me, or discourage me from completing this journey. I've come to far to let anything stop me now. I am excited about this race and finishing strong. At times I've had to walk or even stop, but I've continued and I will continue to press on. Finish well!

Weight loss: -1 pound

Total weight loss: -102 pounds.