Let the fog roll in

A new day, new possibilities and opportunities are ahead of me. BUT the fog has rolled in. Ironically this morning on my way into work the fog was pretty thick. I noticed that even looking at the road behind me I couldn't tell where I had come from. Even looking ahead the road was hard to follow. It sort of seems like life at the moment. I'm not concerned because this new path that I am about to take....well I've had plenty of things in life prepare me for this moment.

A year ago today I started my whole weight loss thing. Exciting yes and to look back and see that I have put a year in with this....WOO HOO, How can I not be excited about losing -111 pounds in 1 year! I still have about 60 more to go, but I know that those 60 may be a little harder then the first 111...ha!

I'm sticking with it, moving forward and making no excuses to see this all through. The fog is clearing and my path will be more defined then it has ever been!

Weight loss: 0

Total weight loss: -111 pounds

Rise...

HE has risen....HE has risen indeed! What a wonderful statement to wake up to on this cold raining day. Just like years before, this Easter is as sweet as the one before. It's not because of the candy...don't miss the point. It's because my savior, HE is risen. After paying the ultimate sacrafice...HE is risen. For me HE died, for me HE paid the price, for me HE lives and loves me. Nothing better. The mountains sing HIS glory, the canyons echo sweet amazing grace....So on this day, HE is risen, HE is risen indeed.

Much has happened in the last week...the last two days actually. I am taking one of the biggest...actually let's just call it what it is, I am taking THEE biggest leap of faith I've ever done in my life. I am starting a new path, a new career, a new beginning. I am of course a little nervous, but I am optimistic that through all things....it will work out for the right reasons. I woke up yesterday with a good sense of strength and joy in my heart. I also woke up feeling a weight has been lifted from my shoulders. Though this new path is just being laid out before me, I am optimistic.

I didn't get my work out in as much as I needed to this past week. But I did get a chance to work out for 2 hours Friday night. It was really good, I felt like I really worked hard. BUT I also felt that I need to work harder. That I have no room for anything to come in between my ultimate goal. I will continue to get on the treadmill to "no where" and work at my ultimate goal of being healthier, more energy....I will see it through.

With each step of this journey I realize the strength that GOD has given me. That no matter what, no matter what I walk through....light....dark....foggy....raining.....hot.....windy....cool breeze.....lighting.....thunder....snow.....peace. It will all be ok because...well it just will be.

Where ever you go....go with heart.

Weight loss: 0

Total Weight loss: -111 pounds

Giddy much!

See what happens when one can't sleep, you blog at the early parts of the morning. I am really going to pay for this tomorrow....but that's ok because I have joy and excitement in my heart! There are some really good, positive things taking place in my life and I am thankful!

Sooner then later I will share with everyone...but I am holding strong to the belief that when you stop letting the negative in and dwelling on things you have NO control over you will succeed, good things come to those who wait.

Yesterday I went to the gym to do my work out and WOW my shins had it in for me! They didn't like the fact that I was going to work them out again. It felt like someone took a blow torch to my shins and went to town. I tried to do a 3.5 incline but that didn't last very long. But I stayed the course!

Make this a great day!

Weight loss: 0

Total Weight loss: -111 pounds

Don't forget about the heart.

So much going on, so much happening around me. But I find myself really focusing inward...something of much importance...my heart. Not just the muscle part of it, but the "heart". You've heard people say "just give it some heart." "Do it with heart." "Don't lose heart." All these sayings I'm taking to heart...no pun intended.

I like this whole working out thing but I am frustrated because I don't feel like I am giving enough "heart" to it and I'm not seeing the results that I want to see. Yes, I know that it will take time. Just wondering how much time! Back at the gym tonight and looking forward to it!

Enjoy this day, take care of your heart!

Weight loss: +1

Total Weight loss: -111 pounds

Hitting a wall

Grr-my blogspot won't let me post a picture this morning. Oh well...it's time to use our imaginations right!

Yesterday turned out to be a "day". Not really sure where I'd start if I was going to explain it to you, but just know that it took all that I was to see it through and get myself to the gym. But I did. I went to Planet Fitness and worked out for 2 hours. 2 very long hours...but it was what I needed. It also happened to be one of the most packed nights I've seen since I've started there.

Almost all the treadmills where full but I managed to find one...in the back row! I get all ready to start and all of a sudden out of no where I hear this lady starting to talk to me like we've known each other for a life time. Normally-those that know me, this wouldn't be a problem, but when I've had a day and all I want to do is listen to music and walk my problems out...this is a problem.

I politely talk to her and she asks me all sorts of questions that I have no idea what she was even talking about. I begin my work out, put one ear phone in and the other I put over my shoulder, as I don't want to be rude and just shut her out completely. Soft spot in my heart...maybe she just needed someone to talk to. SO for 45 minutes I listen to this woman talk about everything from walking slow and how it helps to warm up your heart to how she didn't understand why they'd build a gym like this and make it so inexpensive to people but she's so glad they did. I think between the 20-30 minute mark I blacked out and don't really recall anything else. When she was done, she thanked me for keeping her company and walked out the building....

Needless to say, even though I wanted to be left alone...there is always a reason for everything...that woman helped me forget the whole reason I was so upset about my day. By the time she left I didn't have anything to really be dwell about. I finished my work out and went home....

Be someone's talking buddy today :)

Weight loss: 0

Total Weight loss: -112 pounds

Starting young...or staying young!

Age is just a number and how we reach to it is all in our mind. I'm 32...but that doesn't mean I can't feel younger then 32. I've noticed that the last two weeks that I've been working out I feel better, I feel like I have more energy, but my mind is tired. I know and believe eventually it will all work itself out. I'll stop overloading my thoughts and realize I won't be able to "do it all." One moment at a time.

This weekend Makayla and I where driving and just talking about whatever she wanted too. I love those types of conversations. She doesn't miss a beat. She is aware at all times what's going on with everyone and everything around her. During our conversation she had asked me where I went in the morning. I told her that I had gone to the gym to work out. She asked if it was a place that she could go to, for kids. I shared that it wasn't, just a place for adults and with out missing a beat she said "well when I'm bigger we'll go together but for now I'll go to ballet and you go to the gym." Something about that statement just made me smile. She's good with doing her own thing, to do something she's passionate about...though she has no idea that she is yet, she just loves it. Isn't that what passion is?

It's moments like this that make me realize that sometimes I lose sight of my passion, that I wish as a young child I would of embraced the "healthy" side of life and made better choices growing up. BUT here's the thing about life, can't change the past, that's why it's the past. But there are two things I can do, change the present and the future....but most importantly I can be a great example to my daughter on how to make the right choices, to eat healthy and to be a pretty amazing adult...someday :)

Weight loss: 0

Total weight loss: -112 pounds

Where have I been...

Resting and running...those two words descried what I've been up to over the last few days. Friday after work I went to the gym and spent 60 minutes of my life working on myself, clearing my mind from the very long, emotional and daunting week that I had. I slept well Friday night because I was done focusing on all the things that bring my pain lately. I gave it all up, I let it all go and realized that tomorrow would be a new day. A new beginning and a new focus on things that are important.

Saturday I woke up after having the most detailed dreams that I can recall. I worked out Saturday but it was by far one of the hardest work outs. I was struggling in my mind to stay the course to really work through this. I was having debates on how long I should work out, I wanted to give in at 30 but I told myself to stick with 60 like I have been. But my body was tired. I had been doing this for 4 days straight...it's a lot for a body that hasn't been doing this for years. I stuck to it and completed my 60. I also had the opportunity to spend time some well deserved mother daughter time yesterday. I'm so thankful for the reminders of God's continued love for us. So thankful and so blessed to be her mother.

Today we attended church and enjoying this beautiful day. Even though it's windy windy...but it's beautiful.

I'm not really sure how to explain this...but I am waiting. I'm waiting for something...it seems like a lot of things...everything from waiting on a personal "want", a relationship, seeing the final me....waiting. I'm standing at the "window" of life looking out and waiting....but the great part about all this is that I'll continue to press on...and sooner then later I won't be waiting like I have been.

Have a great rest of the weekend!

Weight loss: -1 pound

Total Weight loss: -112 pounds